Till the last page ...

I always suffer from that weird attitude, which is; i never end something totally, i always reach its end and really get fed up and don't carry it forward.

For example, In my readings i never reach the end of the book or in other words i never survive till the last page even if the book was interesting and great i never have this will and courage to reach the last page.

These days in my college book i'm reading the last pages of it, and the very last page of my educational life but seems that my weird attitude is still taking place... May God help me this time to keep reading just for one time, Till the last page.

محاضرة نتوركس

الناهردة كان أول يوم ليَّ في الكلية وكان المعاد المعهود اللي استنيته كتير ... محاضرة نتوركس .... مفرووض ده المجال اللي أنا بأحلم إني اشتغل فيه وبقالي داخل على سنتين بذاكر فيه مع نفسي ... بس الناهردة اكتشفت جنب جديد قوي للنتوركس مكنتش أعرفه زمان وابتديت أسأل نفسي أنا ليه بحب النتوركس أصلا .. الغريبة كل الأسباب اللي في دماغي ما بقاش ليها معنى بعد محاضرة الناهردة .

اللي حصل الانهارده ببساطة إني اكتشفت حاجة غريبة جدا ... إن دكتور مادة في الكلية مسئول كبير جدا إنه يا اما يحببك في علم أو يكرهك فيه يعني أنا فيه وجهة نظري لو الناهردة كان أول مرة في حياتي أسمع عن النتوركس زي ناس كتير قوي في المدرج الناهردة أول مرة يسمعه مباديء النتوركس كان زماني كرهت المادة والعلم واللي عمل النتوركس أصلا بس لولا إني ذاكرته لوحدي وعرفت إيه الحلو والوحش فيه كان زماني أعد في المدرج بعيط أصلا .

المشكلة دلوقتي مش في النتوركس المشكلة في أيام وسنين اديتها في الكلية ... أنا الناهردة اكتشفت إن احتمال كبير قوي يكون عدى عليَّ مواد أو فروع علم ممكن تكون حلوة قوي زي النتوركس بس للأسف الدكاترة يكونوا زرعه جواية عدم قبول مادة ده أو العلم ده ونرجع نقول فاضل زلطة ونطلع بره

HAPPY NEW YEAR

Look @ the stars

This Picture inspired me to an idea .. i hope it works or at least i try to achieve it

London 2012

2012 Olympic Games

27 July-12 Aug 2012

see you there isA (just a reminder)

Questions

Life has many questions

The common answer is always i don't know

whether it's wrong or right to let go

or ask where other people couldn't go

Maybe tomorrow's goal will understand the soul

or maybe it's answer will be declared unknown

can we write the words that we dropped untold

freezing in the cold and left without even being born

Life has many questions

The common answer is always i don't know

and that's what makes it beautiful

That maybe

That maybe our story wasn't meant to be

time for our souls to be set free

but when it's cold and dark

and no one left to speak

.....

That maybe rain will drop around the window

feel the beauty of sunshine after the rainbow

won't you please come and let me be

the man i once used to be

.....

weird thoughts before i go to sleep

Egypt Match

Today was the expected match in the (Fifa world cup U-20) held in Cairo, The match was between Egypt and Paraguay.

And to tell you the truth i was happy that Egypt lost the match ... but to be more honest i was even wishing that Paraguay win the match, i saw in their players eyes the determination, the passion, the hard work and the persistence. All part of the equation the equation of life and the equation of success, Through the match i forgot that i'm Egyptian and the match is held in my town and just kept remembering this equation... maybe i just wanted to make sure it works or maybe i wanted to feel that this country truly deserve more down times to wake up.

Cast away

And I've lost her all over again. I'm so sad that I don't have Kelly. But I'm so grateful that she was with me on that island. And I know what I have to do now. I gotta keep breathing. Because tomorrow the sun will rise. Who knows what the tide could bring?

FIFA 94

Maybe one of the greatest games in my history i remember not spending less than 3 summer holidays on this game, it was back then that i thought this is the best game in history and really it was .. it was FIFA 94.

Few days ago i was watching a promo video for FIFA 2010 and i couldn't stop myself from remembering this game FIFA 94, for a moment or two i started to discover the major differences that took place in the game industry since 94 till 2010.

But i discovered that this great change in the game industry can be nothing compared to the huge change that happened to my life from someone who spends all his summer playing Fifa 94 to someone else, from that young kid to that grown up person; i'm still trying to understand, it seems that my relation with Fifa in engineering terms "Directly proportional" and as the game grows and change we change but we hardly notice.

If you think that FIFA game has changed a lot since 1994 then look at yourself and see how much you changed, and you'll find out that you changed much more than the game.

The curious case of benjamin button (5)

she had left a note .. she wrote "it was nice to have met you" and that was it.

This part of the movie when the lady benjamin was having an affair with leaves with her husband for war and she leaves him a note saying "It was nice to have met you" .. and that was it, how many people we meet in our lives that make a difference in our lives and the way we see it and how many people we just have to leave and forget and got nothing more to say at the end of the journey but .."It was nice to have met you".

HappYness(2)

This is maybe the second time to write about happiness the topic that never ends and always attracted people to write about, this time am talking about my happiness; recently sitting with myself i discovered a huge hole in my soul ... and after searching inside myself i discovered the problem lies in this simple word "HappYness" i just can't identify it , can't feel it and can't know its meaning. I tried to search for what makes me happy and i couldn't find a logical answer and this is causing me alot of inner dis-satisfaction cause whenever am tired and down i search for that something that just lightens my heart and soul and i can't identify it, i can't touch it and i can't feel it. it's always a pursuit but sometimes it's a pursuit of fake HappYness .

Ramdan this year

It's a weird feeling i have this year a feeling i never felt in the holy month of Ramdan, it's the feeling that something is missing or that something isn't going the right way, maybe the internal state i'm feeling these days have reflected to the way i see the month.

But i remember same time last year when i used to go out of home i used to smell ramdan and see it in the eyes of the kids and their parents ... but i can't feel it or touch this spiritual feeling this year or at least today which is the first day, it's either am the one who's feeling so or maybe this a new symptom of culture change in our country.

Anyway (: كل عام وأنتم بخير :)

Now i got no one left to pray for me .. maybe i should start thinking about praying for myself.

RIP my mother's aunt you left the world in silence i'll never forget you.

Slipping away

There was that thought in my head long ago that people i knew once, can never slip away those people with whom we shared unforgettable moments can never slip away, but as time moves on i get to realize that whether we want or not some people will just slip away ... These days people are really slipping away in a really fast rate, they're slipping away from my life and worse than that slipping away from my appreciation and care.

And as Moby said in his song ... Hold on to people they're slipping away.

Computer games

Today i was paying my young cousin a visit and he was showing me the new computer games on his PC and for a moment or two i remained silent, Actually i started to remember when i was his age i always did like him downloaded 2 or 3 games and kept playing them all summer long, I was never bored of these games.

I didn't believe that the day will come when i look at computer games and say what are these boring stuff i never thought that day would come, when i used to ask my parents why don't old people play computer games their answer was always "We have no patience to play such stuff".

Back then at the time i used to play i used to have really nothing to do but to play these games that's why i was never bored of them, but today at this moment of my life i think i really have no patience to waste 6 hours raising a child in the SIMS, back then i was able to do so but now i don't, i have lots to do more than just to waste it on a computer game.

And now i wonder has life become tougher or harder for me or is it still that simple and easy i don't know but what am sure of is that i miss that little kid worrying about nothing.