Next ?

When i used to be at school like few years ago there used to be a radio show called "Know Thy Self" with Dr.Sahar El Mogy and i still recall this episode so much. She was talking about reaching the success point that you feel you got nothing more to give. Like for instance if your ultimate dream was to be a successful writer and you actually become one of the most successful writers ,the question that will come to your mind always is what's next and she said sometimes it brings many people down achieving their wildest dream cause afterwards they feel they got nothing more to give and nothing more to work for.

When i used to go to school i used to work so hard to go to college .. at college i used to work so hard to graduate .. after graduation i worked so hard to get a good job .. but now the question that's stuck in my head right now at this moment really is "What's next ?" is this what i really want or maybe i can dream for something more. What's the real aim for me being here on earth .. i'm not seeking answers now but as i always say its good to know the question even if we don't know the answers.

الحمد لله

The ellie badge

As if it was those moments that were going to bring him back to life, the old music ringing in his head and a questions runs so deep What if ? and what if not ?

Keep walking

Let's go back in time back back to the most back time slot you can imagine. Let's go back to the day the first human landed on this planet and discovered himself in this wide area of nowhere. The first thing he did was walking. The first thing his children did was just walking , back then all they could do was just walk and discover their surrounding area. So they kept walking and walking till they found water and they were like this is it this is the end of the earth and there is no where else to go. Few hundred years later wanting to unveil the unknown someone or somebody somehow noticed that he can throw some woods on the sea and can sail to the unknown, I wonder how it felt for the first person to ride the waves and sail into the sea felt .. but what am sure of what that person was doing is actually walking, but beyond the boundaries.Beyond the limits we could imagine back then.

Few hundred years later a crazy guy thinks that the earth is a round planet and decides to sail around the world, trying to prove his -crazy- thoughts so he set a ship and lands on a land which later on becomes the world's number one economy, the guy dies without even knowing that he discovered a new land.But all what he was doing was just walking.Trying to go beyond the boundaries trying to prove there's something more for this land we've landed upon.

Few thousand years later a crazy organization decides to send a space ship to space it wants instead of walking horizontally to unveil the vertical land and a man lands on the moon and raises the American flag - the land that was discovered - then we discover that there are 9 planets revolving around the sun and that we're not alone and we're not just a planet there are billions like us.

And the thought that comes to my mind is Us through all these years we're just walking. It seems that the map will never be totally revealed because if you reveal the whole map the game will be over .. i wonder what few thousand years from now will be like what will the human race discover more than what they discovered more galaxies stars planets and maybe lives on other planets.

But the only common action throughout all these years for human beings that made all the difference ...... is that they just kept walking.

The Far Space (2)

So it turned out that someone is asking the same questions of Ellie from the movie Contact whether it's only us or there's someone else.I discovered that Ellie is an inspired character from this speech and there's a real person spending her life sensing signals and waiting for the far space message.

I always ask myself this question are we alone and if not that would be really an awful waste of space.We all tend to live and fight kill and suffer on this planet while if all humans understood for one moment that we're so small to waste our lives fighting and suffering, things would be totally different.But the question what's really out there .. is it just us or maybe our narrow space of mind can't even imagine what's out there. 

Maybe as small as we're in this universe is as small as our brain capabilities for finding the answers.

The meaning

The thoughts in my head these days are running way faster than expected. Dreams hopes fears and every stupid thought that can come to your head is in my head right now.

The meaning .. the meaning to our lives and the meaning for us being here in this life.A tough question why do we keep running everyday searching for meaning and sometimes we create one but is it the one we need.

The meaning .. is my question for myself for the next period because it feels that my life is meaningless.

The Far Space

Young Ellie: Dad, do you think there's people on other planets?

Ted Arroway: I don't know, Sparks. But I guess I'd say if it is just us... seems like an awful waste of space.

Interview Question

Interviewer : What's your biggest life achievement ?
Me: pause 10 seconds (realizing the fact i was sleepless for the past week)
Me: Being here now am just satisfied with everything i did to make it here now  الحمدلله

That something

I don't know what i'm waiting for but i'm waiting for something, i don't know which way to go but there must be a story left for me in that road towards something, and as time goes by and people come and go you still wait and dream of that something, it's not that big i know and it's not that small it's a simple hope i always longed for, the story of waiting and hoping isn't new at all it's just a simple thought and a simple memory recall.

That days come and go we may be waiting and we may not but in the end of the day we're all hoping .. hoping for that something or in other words that someone.

The pen

I hold my pen and the words don't seem to flow like they used to do, something is wrong something is missing and some stuff I just can't understand.

Some hopes are real and others are just slipping away from my hands and at the end of the day i hold my pen and i just can't seem to understand.


Why my thoughts can't flow and whose words is those written by my hands.

The Shadow

I know only your shadow,

It seems enough for me.

I can give it the details that can set me free.

I know only your shadow,

It makes me feel fine.

I am falling in love with a shadow,

The empty shadow of you.

A new entry

Sometimes all you want to do is just add a new entry, rather than just a blog post you just want to add an entry, an entry or part of your story that you want to share.. just a new entry in your life.

I haven't added new entries lately to my blog eventhough my life was full of new entries and old entries full of changes, passions and the most important more dreams.For a moment or two all you can do is just stop and look at those entries in your life all you want to do is to see them feel them and more than this all enjoy them.

Will he give up?

"So you can write?" asked the old man, it seemed as if he liked what i wrote. I can't fail this time it seems to be my last chance, it's been more than one year since i started searching for someone to support my work and it's always been the same a door closed with a smile. It takes a lot of courage to quit everything in your life to start following your passion sometimes i regret the chances that passed the other way of the road, but there seemed to be always a way through as if a light was guiding my way. With my papers in his hand,the old man simply says "I'm sorry".

Identity

The identity of a human or what defines us. Is it what we really do or what we really learn .. is it these stories we leave untold or the stories we live and dream about. I was thinking about identity few days ago and what came to my mind is that old story that i still can remember and can relate much to the topic title which is "Identity".

Back in 5th primary stage, we had a library class and what the teacher decided to do is to make an open discussion and the discussion was about 1 question "Do you think your mothers shall go to work or just stay home?" and the question was left open for discussion, at my age back then all i could do is just observe how kids reacted to the question. And after the discussion ended i noticed that the kids that supported the mothers case to go to work was those who had their mothers work .. and similarly those whom their mothers didn't work, didn't support the case.

When i remembered this example i started to realize that the major changes in any one's life is based on those who teach them and these surrounding environment and events that takes place in their life. Which leaves me more confused with an open ended question .. then what makes us and what defines us .. in other words what gives us our identity?

Kids' story

One of the things i really enjoy while running in the club is watching the small kids playing whether in the playground or in the kinder garden area ... it's always beautiful to see how these kids act and react to you passing through them.

But today i stopped by a bunch of kids something like primary school kids and they seemed to be having a fight and i was really interested in hearing the conversation.

Kid X : أنا خلاص مش عايز أكلمك تانى

Kid Y : وانتا فاكر نفسك مين انا مش هكلمك تانى

Kid X: مش هتكلمنى تانى طيب ابقى شوف مين هيصاحبك اصلا

Kid X & Z: يلا نمشى ونسيبه لوحده كده

The funny thing is that when we grow up we forget our kidish nature i wonder if that's a good thing or a bad thing i mean we all have arguments with each other but we don't say the words we want to say to each other, deep inside us we talk like (kid X Y Z) but we don't show it we just keep hiding .. i still believe in a matter of days things will go fine with (kid X Y Z) cause at the end they know why they fought for at first place.

The beautiful thing about children is that they're so simple and they're so HUMAN in what the word means .. they jump when they want to jump they cry when they feel bad and they run when they want to run ... they smile when you pass through them and they keep walking around trying to discover the weird neighborhood in the club, but as they grow up they keep walking around more often trying to discover the weird mysteries of life.

رقم جلوس

Today was the last written exam in my college and i was just staring at this tiny paper on the desk and i realized that this is my bench number .. after a little while of flying away with memories i went back to my primary school days.

In primary school, we used to have a really weird habit .. we used to tear apart the bench numbers or as we call it رقم الجلوس and throw them away after the last year exam singing the unforgettable song  لا مذاكرة بعد اليوم فلعب الكورا اهم اهم there used to be a magical feeling by doing that, this old habit really used to mark the end of our examination i used to see the happy kids running in the school laughing that the exams are over. Life went on and we continued this habit i guess till secondary stage.

In 2nd secondary stage we were given that big red رقم جلوس and after 2nd year stage final exam i was really excited and i wanted to do the holy action of tearing رقم الجلوس apart and throwing it away but i remembered that i'll use the same bench number for next year so i was forced not to do so.

In 3rd year came the time to take my revenge and there was nothing to prevent me from tearing it apart but something stopped me i actually looked at it and couldn't tear it, i just took it and put it in my pocket i don't know why but maybe at this moment i realized that this is all that's left from this stage of my life .. it's that little red paper with all its memories, till today i still keep my رقم الجلوس of secondary stage and yes that's all what's left from that period of my life.

Today i kept starring at my bench number and i couldn't tear it apart as well but all i did is what you see in the attached picture to this post, in college you share a bench number with 4 other students so actually you can't tear it ... all i could do is take a picture of it and as many things i think in life that come and go that we may miss or not miss the only thing that remain is these unforgettable memories left in the form of pictures papers and sometimes in the form of a رقم جلوس

The Dawn

As we pass through the night

we'll always wait for the dawn

and when the dawn comes

we'll wait for the night once more

Just for history (My old blog)

Just for history or in case i even forget the URL this is my Blog .. My first blog i was passing through its posts and it really made me smile.

A STar'S Dream

Rachel Corrie

I'm here because i care.. i won't get into political details and it's my first time to really feel sad for Rachel that much, i believe the whole world lost a dreamer one of those who could have changed our world to a better place.

Rachel Corrie Lived and Died for the sake of her dream ... ever since a little child she dreamed of a better world for us all ..she didn't give up nor surrender till the day she died. She reminds me much of the movie "Pay it forward" when the little kid die .. in his pursuit to change the world .. but in the end of the movie you discover that people can come and go but their dreams and hopes can live forever.

This speech shows us the passion and the trueness of that young kid .. she walked her talk and left a legacy and some traces for people like us to carry on her dream. Hopefully one day her dream will come true.

may your soul RIP Rachel Corrie

More

" What if the world needs more? " I don't know really i just can't understand why i keep repeating these words in my head .. they're not from a movie or even a song but i keep repeating them all day long. those words are "What if the world needs more? " and i really don't know what the world needs from me at first place then why would it even need more.

Does it need more love or maybe more dreams or maybe more passion about what am doing .. or maybe it want more faith and belief .. maybe it needs more of my time and effort .. maybe it needs more achievements and glory .. maybe more friends to hang out with .. maybe more money .. i obviously don't know "What does the world even needs from me? ".

I just really don't know why these words are stuck in my head in such a way .. but maybe the only obvious thing is that the world just needs more from me.

Tobias Mead

His father wanted him to be a football player .. his family started to step away from him because he told them he wants to be a professional dancer.

quoting from his twitter account

Bio: lives to dance, dance to live!

Same old story

It's always been the same

killers live and others die

some say truth and others lie

murder in-front of our eyes

and we don't seem to even try

it's always been the same

same old story

Batman Quote (1)

Bruce Wayne: Well today I found out what Batman can't do.

He can't endure this. Today you get to say "I told you so."

Alfred Pennyworth: Today, I don't want to.

[pauses for several moments]

Alfred Pennyworth: But I did bloody tell you.

Michael Jackson - This is It

Janey Cutler

When they asked Britain's got talent contestant Janey Cutler who's 80 years old after Wowing the judges with her amazing voice .. "How many years have you waited to do that?" .. she smiled and said am just thankful to be here tonight.

and am just thankful to be here tonight as well

عم فوزى بتاع زمان

Not neglecting the fact that am studying Fuzyy Logic these days and the name of the subjects and the fun comments about it led me to remember this part of my life and specially that old person عم فوزى.

When i used to be a little kid i used to buy stationary stuff i need for school from an old stationary store down my home and it was run by a really old man named عم فوزى , whenever i used to enter he used to smile and he was always helpful you know the old people بتوع زمان and he was always cheerful and helping me out in choosing the stuff .. his friendly attitude with everyone around him made his old small stationary survive even after the arrival of the big stationaries in the neighborhood .. i remember even during summer visiting his stationary to buy kids comics and some other stuff and i never thought about going somewhere else.

Many years ago we found the old stationary closed for a long time and sadly they told us that  عم فوزى passed away and since that day that old stationary shop is closed and nothing has replaced it .. whenever i pass by it i just remember that old cheerful guy.

It's all part of our lives the comes and the goes and people like عم فوزى left their legacy in life for people like me and all those who bought from his stationary to remember him and pray for him.

may your soul RIP عم فوزى

Crazy

And those crazy thoughts

as crazy as a million dreams

crazy life of birds in the sky

and nothing is as crazy as it seems

crazy little ants crossing the street

as crazy as friends that come and go

and nothing but ...

crazy starts and much crazier ends

And those crazy moments

as crazy as sparkling stars

easy to see .. way too far

and nothing remains but their simple glow

And those crazy thoughts in my head

as crazy as a million dreams

people keep calling them crazy

seem so much real to me

The Last College Lecture

The Last lecture , whenever i hear this word i remember the best presentation ever given by Randy Paush declaring that this is his last lecture, After discovering his killing cancer disease . He made a lecture which in my opinion can be described as one of the most inspiring lectures in history, ever since i saw this lecture my whole perspective towards life has changed.

Today at this moment am attending the last college lecture isA. The only common thing between Randy's lecture and this lecture is the ringing name "The last lecture" and the fact that after this lecture many changes will take place in our lives just like Randy's "last lecture" changed the lives of many people.

Control Lecture 13-5-2010

When the rain starts to fall

I'll just miss you when the rain starts to fall

when all the drops start to fall

I'll just miss the way it felt before

when we used to walk along that road

with rainbow dreams across the stars

I'll just miss you when the rain starts to fall

cause i'll always remember how beautiful you are

Everybody is someone

No matter where you go or what you do, just don't give up on people .. cause everyone is special in a way or another you may or may not know .. or even the people themselves may not know that they're special.

Everybody is someone .. there got to be a hidden talent inside of everyone that's what i truly believe and everyday i keep discovering hidden talents in people and in me and the more i see the more i realize at the end of the day that "Everybody is someone".

So never give up on people cause everyone is special in a way you may or may not know,by coincidence i passed by this quote and i really adored it to the extent i want to share it with you.

“There's a big world out there. Bigger than prom, bigger than high school, and it won't matter if you were the prom queen or the quarterback of the football team or the biggest nerd. Find out who you are and try not to be afraid of it.”

Always on your side

She picked up her papers the papers she held so dear, everyday she wakes up and looks at them and remembers such precious memories it's back then when she used to believe that life is beautiful, magnificent and most of all full of love.She starts to prepare her morning tea but she couldn't forget how beautiful it felt when they drank their first cup of tea together and all that's left from their story is few papers she keeps looking at.

Ordinary day ordinary people pass her way those who try so hard to gain her precious care or respect or even love but no one can, Her heart was reserved long ago and she couldn't unlock it once more everything seems to remind her of him the one who she couldn't forget.

Comes back home to the empty room of her soul, she couldn't stop her self from picking up those papers once more the papers he left before going away ... the papers that keep reminding her of the one that fairy tales call her destiny. It's been few years since he's gone and all that's left is those  little words written on this paper with his beautiful handwriting "Don't worry my love, I'm always on your side".

FacebookHolic

I've been always thinking that am a facebook holic and that this is totally a bad thing i agree it's a total waste of time sometimes, but lately i realized something that somehow shifted my paradigm.

Me as Ahmed the person/writer likes to express myself, maybe since i was a little kid i enjoyed writing down how i feel and maybe that's why i consider myself a potential writer, eventhough am not that good one.

The writer's main aim is to let what he's feeling out in whatever way it is, in facebook i let it out in the form of status updates and sharing interesting links and that's one of the things that makes me stay alot on facebook, at the end of the day facebook is nothing but a text area with lots of words inside it.

Hope

I just remembered those words right now i know i posted the same post long ago, but it felt so true right now, i believe this one of the truest from the heart academy award accepting speech by Marketa Irgolova from the movie ONCE .. specially when she say

"and hope at the end of the day connects us all, no matter how different we are"

Really i felt so right now,That we as human beings share many things in common and that's the power of hope so no matter who we are young or old rich or poor hope is what connects us all

“Hi everyone. I just want to thank you so much. This is such a big deal, not only for us, but for all other independent musicians and artists that spend most of their time struggling, and this, the fact that we’re standing here tonight, the fact that we’re able to hold this, it’s just the proof that no matter how far out your dreams are, it’s possible. And, you know, fair play to those who dare to dream and don’t give up. And this song was written from a perspective of hope, and hope at the end of the day connects us all, no matter how different we are. And so thank you so much, who helped us along way. Thank you.” Marketa Irgolova 2008

To the one who knows

And as the piano started playing he remembered everything now the story of his life, the journey the start and probably the end he keeps dreaming of. A smile goes up his face as he start to remember those crazy little moments he passed by unnoticed, and those unforgettable ones.

As the piano continued playing he started to look at himself what has he done so far with his life where did he go and where he didn't, seems that the rhythm is now starting to flow through his soul, it's been so long since he sat with himself listened to such amazing piano.

Now that the music is coming to an end he starts to think does she even know who he is .. or maybe she doesn't know. And all his dreams at this moment seemed to be small compared to that little dream left unknown maybe one day it'll come true, he smiled when he looked at the music name and it turned out to be "To the one who knows..." hopefully she does.

The Soundtrack

Lately i feel that my life is really missing a soundtrack playing in the background, drum beats when i get excited and slow piano music when i feel emotional, the base guitar goes loud when i feel worried and the fading out of volume when things seem to calm down.

I always feel the importance of soundtrack playing in the background of my life and since no music is playing in the street i imagine my own soundtrack, cause in a way or another our lives is part of a big movie we're acting in, and one of the major keys of success of a movie in my opinion is its soundtrack.

So if you see me walking alone thinking .. don't think am crazy am just enjoying the soundtrack in the background.

Sigh

A sigh is an audible/bearable exhalation of air arising from tiredness or emotion, usually sadness, which itself could be stemming from feelings of sadness or futility.

This is the definition of sigh from Wikipedia which exactly how i felt when i sighed right now, it seems funny cause there are human interactions that can express our feelings whether it's a smile or a sigh and no matter who does it, it gives the same feeling.

**sigh**

عنق الزجاجة

عنق الزجاجة or the tip point of the bottle in other words, why is it in our lives we have to pass by these moments that the only way to get out of the bottle is to pass by its tip point or عنق الزجاجة

And it's the toughest moments at all when you feel you're so stuck in the middle between being set free and between going back to the empty bottle, cause the feeling of عنق الزجاجة is what am exactly feeling right now at my final days at college, i feel as if i'm stuck in a bottle and i have to go out.

The funny thing if you reflect this idea on your life you'll find that all our lives is filled with moments where the only way out is عنق الزجاجة

Writing

I always used to believe that inside each and everyone of us a writer. A talent that is left undiscovered i always told people they can write if they want, if they just let everything inside out.

I always used to believe that the truest words come out from a pencil and a paper just left without boundaries and not afraid of what it's about to read.

I always used to believe that no matter how hard a situation you're living your pencil will never let you down. And it's just a simple step that transfers you from the outer world to the inner world it's just as simple as a pencil and a paper and an open mind.

That's why i really feel like writing now, but sometimes the words don't seem to rhyme.

Dream

Some people may live and die for the sake of one dream ... but maybe that dream is what makes their life worth living

A promise

I really need to make this self promise loud, i really want to promise myself .. a promise that i should have taken early in my life but now seems to be the right time to say it loud.

I promise myself that after i graduate from college I'LL NEVER study or do something i don't want to study/do, life is too short to waste doing something you don't like.

I want to travel !!

Not like all my friends who hate their country and wish to travel abroad to work, for me i want to travel for a completely different reason am not one of those who curse the state of their country or the working environment here and am not one of those who believe that you get more money when you travel abroad.

But all am thinking of ... when i think that i want to travel is that i really need a change i really need a blow off from what i'm today i need a new environment new people and the most important thing a new life. I want to know people i never met before even if they don't speak/eat/live the way i do. I want to try new things even if it's gonna hurt me i don't want to be prejudged by things i've done before i want to pave a road for my career of technology.

I just want to travel am so tired of what i'm feeling these days .. I'm few months away from graduation and nobody knows where the wind will blow.

The hopeless hope

Collecting the bits and pieces that fell apart

the bits and pieces of myself

leaving me dreaming with no will to wake up

the world doesn't seem to give us a new start

and all of a sudden you find yourself lost

lost with a tiny hope

a beautiful hope

The hopeless hope....

سؤال محيرني

هو ليه الريس الناهردة صحي الصبح وراح المطار يستقبل لعيبة المنتخب ... ده مابيعملهاش ل أي حد سؤال كبير ابتدى يحيرني ؟ طب ماهو عنده علماء وعباقرة بيرجعوا من السفر ويجوا البلد يصعب عليهم نفسهم وبيرجعوا تاني .. ليه مثلا مراحش يستقبل واحد بسيط نجح ورفع اسم بلده في أي بلد عربي أو اجنبي ... سؤالي ده مش قصدي بيه إني اعترض إن الريس يستقبل لعيبة الكورة لأ بالعكس أنا فرحان بيهم زي ماكل مصر فرحانة بيهم انما المشكلة .. احنا بقينا نقدر مين في البلد ديه .. يا ريت نقدر مجهود كل واحد تعب عشان البلد زي مابنقدر لعيبة المنتخب

ومبروك ل مصر النصر

Pixar

In our graduation ceremony from Microsoft Internship, MS Egypt General manager while making his presentation suddenly stopped and looked at us and asked a very weird question .."Why can't you all be the next Pixar?" you can't imagine the looks at our faces when he asked this question we were all like :|:|:| .. he said why can't you someone tell me, and we were still all looking like :|:|:| and it seemed to be the only answer we could make.

Today i was watching the Pixar animation movie UP and at last i found the answer to this question ... the answer is IMAGINATION these guys really don't limit or drop creativity they have a pure Imagination, the thing we truly lack and always not encouraged to do ... with such educational system the answer to the question, we'll never be the next Pixar.

آه لو كنت اطير

آه لو كنت اطير

مثل عصفور صغير

كنت احيا في صفاء

بين أشجار وماء

في حما رب السماء

حيثما شئت أسير

آه لو كنت اطير

شعر لسة فاكره وحفظه من وانا في تالتة ابتدائي

Dream again

Sometimes you have to wake up

then sleep and dream again

it's hard to put the puzzle into peices

it's hard when you work so hard to understand

you tend to reach all your goals

break the silence with your rise and falls

you see a beautiful flower shining in the air

sun falls on it gives a beautiful display

you try to run and hide

from all the troubles in your life

then you hit the walls and break the stones

....

cause sometimes you have to wake up

then sleep and dream again

Put a record on

So i hear these words coming from my speakers singing "Put a record on" and everything seems strange and i find myself digging in your photos and everything seems to be somehow different and weird ... i feel that i lost you long ago and the moment of silence is broken by the words "That's ok in a way i'm free" so i start skipping the photos i hate the most, that reminds me of everything you really are and passed through some of me right there and i just laughed but some laughs are tougher than tears and found myself so puzzled and the words seems so interesting "It's too late or too soon, some other gonna come too soon" suddenly i remembered everything in a moment or two our past and what could have been with the singer voice fading slowly "Put it on i'll try to dry my eyes , my love"

RUN

I really don't know what am doing or where am going but i feel like running ... just like forrest

Lack of planning

What i'm suffering of right now is a total result of lack of planning or maybe really bad planning

Rabena yostor

Dawn stars

I miss looking at the stars at the break of dawn

It's no longer the feeling i used to know

I miss waiting for the sunshine after the dark

Waiting for a brand new start

I miss just gazing at the far skies that are falling apart

Filled with those dreams that used to fill my heart

I miss looking at the stars at the break of dawn

It's no longer the feeling i used to know

Where'd you go

To everyone i'm missing right now, Where'd you go

Contact (2)

"You're an interesting species. An interesting mix. You're capable of such beautiful dreams, and such horrible nightmares. You feel so lost, so cut off, so alone, only you're not. See, in all our searching, the only thing we've found that makes the emptiness bearable, is each other."

Vega's Message

Networks Life

Many people in the computer industry take enormous pride in how fast computer technology is improving. The original (1981) IBM PC ran at a clock speed of 4.77 MHz. Twenty years later, PCs could run at 2 GHz, a gain of a factor of 20 per decade. Not too bad.

In the same period, wide area data communication went from 56 kbps (the ARPANET) to 1 Gbps (modern optical communication), a gain of more than a factor of 125 per decade, while at the same time the error rate went from 10^-5 per bit to almost zero.

i have to cope with a 125 gain factor of knowledge per decade ... can i really do this do i have the power to do this and the tougher question do i want to do this.

Always on your side

Night dream

What's the difference between a good dream and a bad dream? the truth is that they both hurt you. If you wake up from a good dream you wake up to a painful reality, and when you have a bad dream you wake up too afraid to lose what you already have.

Hope you all Sleep well and have Sweet dreams

قلب فارس

انا قلبي قلب فارس ومش خايف

انا حاسس انا شايف

الحق هنا في قلبي

واهو رب الكون جنبي

هوا المالك هو الحارس

أنا قلبي قلب فارس

قلبي شبه سيفي درعي عشر ايآت

لون خيلي من طيفي ثابت حتى الممات

دور كده جواك هتلاقي فيك مني

هتلاقي في جواك فارس ومستني

يرمح على خيله ويقيد ظلام ليله

نور ربه ده دليله لو مره ضل وتاه

اهدني يا الله

اللهم اهدني واهدي بي وقوني وقوي بي وهب لي من لدنك نور في ظلام الفتن

فاكس مش مذاكر

It's been late another night for him , wash his face looks at his mirror and says loudly فاكس مش مذاكر a wise sound gets through his head telling him to carry on but he doesn't seem to listen ... a much deeper voice within him is telling him and insisting on those words فاكس مش مذاكر

He decides to listen to the voice within and simply gives up ... decides to open Facebook or chat with anyone .. decides to go the next day to party and do something different .. decides that he's no longer going to waste his life doing this shit and simply the wise words of فاكس مش مذاكر becomes more dominating than ever and he seems to be enjoying every moment without studying.

"Wake up .. Wake up" a voice from far comes across his head .. "It's time to go to school .. Wake up you'll be late" ... suddenly he wakes up from that weird dream .. he's been dreaming all night of studying and his future and suddenly he shouts at his mom "فاكس مش رايح "

حاجة بتحبها

,Networks امبارح كنت قعدت حوالي 6 ساعات متواصلة أعمل ورق شرح

من غير ماحس بملل من غير مكتئب .... في حين بقالي شهر كامل مش عارف أذاكر 6 ساعات على بعد الموضوع ده فكرني برده بيَّ لما بيبقى في دماغي فكرة فيديو أنا ممكن أقعد يوم كله أنسى الدنيا ومافيها ومنامش غير لما يخلص في حين أدامي مشاريع للكلية تخلص على طول وبرده

مش قادر حتى أبدأ فيها وده يخليني ادعي

يا رب لما اتخرج اشتغل في حاجة بحبها

Egyptian Kid

http://www.egypttoday.com/article.aspx?ArticleID=7882

Mahmoud the Egyptian genius kid ... i'm not amazed by his achievements but all i'm amazed with is his vision ... An 11 year old kid sends an email message to Dr.Ahmed Zeweil saying "I'm gonna be younger than you when i win the Nobel Prize"... When i heard those words on TV i was like that's not just a genius kid, he's a kid with a vision at last i see someone with a vision and a defined vision and what an 11 year old kid.

Mahmoud knows things i didn't realize except when i was 20 years old, he is now holding more IT certificates than i am ... and more than this all he's Egyptian.

Now let's see what Egyptian people are interested in today in life :

This country is filled with Mahmoud but we're too busy really being something else we're wasting all that's Egyptian which is people like Mahmoud ... I believe Mahmoud isn't a genius or anything he's just a young kid who had his vision early, whose parents didn't force him to do anything and are running day and night teaching him something and making something out of him.

I was once asked in an interview who's the successful? i still remember the answer he's someone capable of knowing his potential and his passion ... A garbage man can be the best in town and better than an ordinary engineer.

If we just teach our kids to dream .. to aim high ... and the most important thing to have a vision this country won't have one Mahmoud .. but it'll be filled with Mahmoud's and these are the true Egyptian stars not anyone else.

Lost Again

The morning rises and a sun light shines through the air

it's another moment for me without you there

it's me again and once more i found my self ... Lost

A song keeps playing in my head

reminds me of all the things i should have said

it's me again talking to myself which is .. Lost

Another night pass me by

with my head preparing to wish another day a goodbye

it's me again in the same place i found my self .. Lost

My dreams are taking me there

but i wake up and it's all in vain

it's me again trying to understand the truth ... That maybe i''m lost without you

Happiness (3)

In my quest for a happiness definition i just made up this one and maybe that's the best one.

"It's those tiny moments we pass by unnoticed, in our journey of achieving our dreams"

That means you'll never be happy unless you have a dream and you have a journey you're heading for.