His favorite song

And he keeps playing his favorite song

and thinks it'll revive him all night long
keeps repeating its beautiful words
and hear its rhythem inside his soul
watch the future glimpsing with all its goals
And he keeps playing his favorite song
Till he see the first shred of the dawn
and it's just another night for him, all alone

Fragile

If blood will flow when fresh and steel are one

Drying in the colour of the evening sun
Tomorrows rain will wash the stains away
But something in our minds will always stay
Perhaps this final act was meant
To clinch a lifetimes argument
That nothing comes from violence and nothing ever could
For all those born beneath an angry star
Lest we forget how fragile we are

I can't believe

I can't believe i'm starting to forget you

leaving my heart and soul with unforgotten memory.
Your picture is fading from my mind's screen,
everything now appears so clear.
I can't believe i'm starting once again,
Am Flying away to another far away space
Seeing the world without the shades of your face
I can't believe i'm starting to forget you.
you've been there for so long,
and at the end of the journey
life goes on ...

You can be

You can be as far as the highest stars

and as close as my wildest dream
You can be as high as an old tree
and as close as its roots to the sea
You can be whoever you want to be
but try to be as close as you can to me

Uptown girl

Who can forget such an old song ohhh ... memories

Chance

Tired of waiting for my chance ... to rise and shine

The curious case of benjamin button (4)

This part was said by the old man who keeps telling benjamin Did I ever tell you, I was struck by lightning 7 times?

Did I ever tell you,
I was struck by lightning 7 times?

Once I was walking
the dog down the road.

( A silent moment ) ....
............
I'm blind in the one eye,
can't hardly hear.

I get twitches and shakes
out of nowhere,

I always lose my line of thought.

But you know what?

God keeps reminding me I'm lucky to be alive.

These were the final words said by the old man .. and he didn't appear again in the movie ..

That place

Nile fm forums

You know what no matter how dead that place seems now, i still believe ... that was one of the best things i ever did and one of the best places i've ever been and one of the best moments of my life where spent there, and no matter how bad things went at the end ... i'm still satisfied with our output.

Am ain't

Am ain't that strong

Am ain't that weak either
It ain't my only dream
It ain't yours either
You ain't that far
You ain't that close either
Am ain't that strong
Am ain't that weak either

The sugar

I remember when i had my interview in ACES 07 with HR head she asked me a question ... why would you like to join ACES ? and my answer was simple ..

I told her i believe college for me without ACES is like tea without sugar....

Back then i considered ACES one of the most important sugar in my life that adds taste to the tea ... the sour and tasteless tea.

After spending this year out of ACES, i made a big mistake i'm still paying its dept. what i did was simply trying to drink the tea without adding any sugar to it, till i realized that this year is nearlly over but i can't keep drinking .

It's not about ACES is the sugar what am talking about is that In your life you must always keep searching for sugar that makes your tea not only of good taste but of life worth value.

In the end of august

The curious case of benjamin button (3)

Daisy: What are you thinking of ?

Benjamin: I was thinking of how nothing lasts ....
Benjamin: And what a shame that is ..
Daisy: Somethings last .....

"Risk it for a biscuit"

Back to the good old days of Nile fm radio station and to be more clear to the big drive home show ohh.. memories can flood for years with that station and its shows, i remembered there used to be a really big competetion on the "Big drive home" it was called risk it for a biscuit -which is cadbury biscuit chocolate - and i can't really remember what it was all about but this name really got through my mind right now those 5 simple words "Risk it for a biscuit"

Cause these days i really feel i won't get any biscuits in my life unless i risk it .. and am left with the thought that i really need to "Risk it for a biscuit".

The curious case of benjamin button (2)

There was that part of the movie, when "daisy" got hit by the car the way they showed it; was really clever they showed us how many tiny things could have happened that daisy wouldn't have been hit by the car.

And benjamin ended the story by saying

"But life is being what it is, a series of intersecting lives and incidents out of anyone's control.. the taxi wouldn't have hit daisy"

It's really weird feeling i have now, is that taking a look at my life and how much i intersected with lives and incidents some were in my hands and many others were out of my control .. those tiny lives and incidents i passed through is what made me who i am today.

Many things in my life could have dramatically changed if a really tiny thing happened, all my life path would have changed but in the end ... somethings happen for a reason we may or may not know and there's always things that happen out of our control.

I believe somethings will never happen unless they're meant to be .. so i decided to let go and whatever will be .. will be isA.

The empty space

A couple of hours ago i was implementing memory allocation program .. and what that does is that it's a simulation to show how the memory acts when recieving a new process .. and where to allocate it in its address space.

The weird thing really is that the memory searches for an "Empty space" to fit the new process in, that empty space can be an old process removed with a certain size that just left an empty space and needs to be filled with a new process.

I know this will sound odd for other than computer engineers but it's so weird that when i stopped at my life; it acts exactly like a memory, with an address space of a certain size and that place gets filled with processes, but the truth about processes is that it's temporary and it'll come one day and leave your address space .. and leaves an empty space.

As a life example you can love someone so much and when they leave your life, the place in your heart is left empty and you keep waiting for a new process ("New person") to fill that empty space but the question is, will it take the size of an empty space all .. or leave another empty space cause its size is less than the previous process size.

From my memory assignment i get to realize that our lives is nothing more than trying to fill some empty spaces.