R.I.P

This life keeps teaching us day after day, and it's amazing how can a person inspires you so much after his death while during his life your conversations didn't exceed the words "Hi how are you doing". I was checking my email inbox to find some emails from him forwarded to many people the kind of emails that passes by your eyes everyday but today it felt so different. I guess Mohamed Essam is one of those lucky people who inspired many people in his life and much more people after his death, one of the few people who left a legacy... i wish i knew him more ... May his soul and his mother's rest in peace and may God bless their souls and keep their memory in our lives.

Something i don't understand

Recently i found out that i am becoming something i can't understand, that small little fact is really blowing me off lately.

I'm becoming something different from everyone around me, one of the things that caught my attention lately is my total focus on my career path and achievement record, i even can't find any other interesting topic to talk about, i ran out of topics to talk to people about.

I'm finding it really hard to even talk to people who are non-engineers, i'm becoming something i can't understand and in my search for answers i feel more lost this isn't the only reason i feel lost that's one of the thoughts that came to my mind right now.

It's this time of year that you review your past and aim for your future, but how can i do so when i'm becoming something i can't understand .. something i don't understand (myself).

Yesterday

And the singer keeps singing "Yesterday"
I kept reading the words i wanted to say, i remembered when how the world seemed so small and how i was that close to a moment of happiness and suddenly everything didn't seem to go my way. as if something has ended the long story but infact it was a start of something i couldn't define or understand, while the thoughts are running so fast .. the singer is still singing slowly "Yesterday".

Kung Fu Panda

Quit, don't quit? Noodles, don't noodles? You are too concerned about what was and what will be. There is a saying: yesterday is history, tomorrow is a mystery, but today is a gift. That is why it

is called the "present".

Master Oogway - (Kung Fu Panda)

And i love her

"And i love her" is the beatles song and one of the most romantic songs i ever heard as part of my trial to understand what was it about, it turned out that Paul wrote this song to his fiance' Jane Asher.

So i just wanted to see how did the story of this song ends and it turned out that later after this song they broke up and it really makes me wonder can a guy with all these emotions put in a song leave her !! .. if so then what defines the words we write or maybe sometimes we have these enormous fake feelings, i just wonder how does Jane feels when she turns on the radio and hears this song and remembers that this was her song.

Till the last page ...

I always suffer from that weird attitude, which is; i never end something totally, i always reach its end and really get fed up and don't carry it forward.

For example, In my readings i never reach the end of the book or in other words i never survive till the last page even if the book was interesting and great i never have this will and courage to reach the last page.

These days in my college book i'm reading the last pages of it, and the very last page of my educational life but seems that my weird attitude is still taking place... May God help me this time to keep reading just for one time, Till the last page.

محاضرة نتوركس

الناهردة كان أول يوم ليَّ في الكلية وكان المعاد المعهود اللي استنيته كتير ... محاضرة نتوركس .... مفرووض ده المجال اللي أنا بأحلم إني اشتغل فيه وبقالي داخل على سنتين بذاكر فيه مع نفسي ... بس الناهردة اكتشفت جنب جديد قوي للنتوركس مكنتش أعرفه زمان وابتديت أسأل نفسي أنا ليه بحب النتوركس أصلا .. الغريبة كل الأسباب اللي في دماغي ما بقاش ليها معنى بعد محاضرة الناهردة .

اللي حصل الانهارده ببساطة إني اكتشفت حاجة غريبة جدا ... إن دكتور مادة في الكلية مسئول كبير جدا إنه يا اما يحببك في علم أو يكرهك فيه يعني أنا فيه وجهة نظري لو الناهردة كان أول مرة في حياتي أسمع عن النتوركس زي ناس كتير قوي في المدرج الناهردة أول مرة يسمعه مباديء النتوركس كان زماني كرهت المادة والعلم واللي عمل النتوركس أصلا بس لولا إني ذاكرته لوحدي وعرفت إيه الحلو والوحش فيه كان زماني أعد في المدرج بعيط أصلا .

المشكلة دلوقتي مش في النتوركس المشكلة في أيام وسنين اديتها في الكلية ... أنا الناهردة اكتشفت إن احتمال كبير قوي يكون عدى عليَّ مواد أو فروع علم ممكن تكون حلوة قوي زي النتوركس بس للأسف الدكاترة يكونوا زرعه جواية عدم قبول مادة ده أو العلم ده ونرجع نقول فاضل زلطة ونطلع بره

HAPPY NEW YEAR

Look @ the stars

This Picture inspired me to an idea .. i hope it works or at least i try to achieve it

London 2012

2012 Olympic Games

27 July-12 Aug 2012

see you there isA (just a reminder)

Questions

Life has many questions

The common answer is always i don't know

whether it's wrong or right to let go

or ask where other people couldn't go

Maybe tomorrow's goal will understand the soul

or maybe it's answer will be declared unknown

can we write the words that we dropped untold

freezing in the cold and left without even being born

Life has many questions

The common answer is always i don't know

and that's what makes it beautiful

That maybe

That maybe our story wasn't meant to be

time for our souls to be set free

but when it's cold and dark

and no one left to speak

.....

That maybe rain will drop around the window

feel the beauty of sunshine after the rainbow

won't you please come and let me be

the man i once used to be

.....

weird thoughts before i go to sleep

Egypt Match

Today was the expected match in the (Fifa world cup U-20) held in Cairo, The match was between Egypt and Paraguay.

And to tell you the truth i was happy that Egypt lost the match ... but to be more honest i was even wishing that Paraguay win the match, i saw in their players eyes the determination, the passion, the hard work and the persistence. All part of the equation the equation of life and the equation of success, Through the match i forgot that i'm Egyptian and the match is held in my town and just kept remembering this equation... maybe i just wanted to make sure it works or maybe i wanted to feel that this country truly deserve more down times to wake up.

Cast away

And I've lost her all over again. I'm so sad that I don't have Kelly. But I'm so grateful that she was with me on that island. And I know what I have to do now. I gotta keep breathing. Because tomorrow the sun will rise. Who knows what the tide could bring?

FIFA 94

Maybe one of the greatest games in my history i remember not spending less than 3 summer holidays on this game, it was back then that i thought this is the best game in history and really it was .. it was FIFA 94.

Few days ago i was watching a promo video for FIFA 2010 and i couldn't stop myself from remembering this game FIFA 94, for a moment or two i started to discover the major differences that took place in the game industry since 94 till 2010.

But i discovered that this great change in the game industry can be nothing compared to the huge change that happened to my life from someone who spends all his summer playing Fifa 94 to someone else, from that young kid to that grown up person; i'm still trying to understand, it seems that my relation with Fifa in engineering terms "Directly proportional" and as the game grows and change we change but we hardly notice.

If you think that FIFA game has changed a lot since 1994 then look at yourself and see how much you changed, and you'll find out that you changed much more than the game.

The curious case of benjamin button (5)

she had left a note .. she wrote "it was nice to have met you" and that was it.

This part of the movie when the lady benjamin was having an affair with leaves with her husband for war and she leaves him a note saying "It was nice to have met you" .. and that was it, how many people we meet in our lives that make a difference in our lives and the way we see it and how many people we just have to leave and forget and got nothing more to say at the end of the journey but .."It was nice to have met you".