Don't Forget Me

In the wintertime

Keep your feet warm

But keep your clothes on and don't forget me

Keep the memories

But keep your powder dry too

In the summer by the poolside

While the fireflies are all around you

I'll miss you when I'm lonely

I'll miss the sunshine too

Now don't forget me

Please don't forget me

Make is easy on me just for a little while

You know I think about you

I hope you'll think about me too

Macy Gray - Don't Forget Me

Confessions of a Shopaholic soundtrack

R.I.P

This life keeps teaching us day after day, and it's amazing how can a person inspires you so much after his death while during his life your conversations didn't exceed the words "Hi how are you doing". I was checking my email inbox to find some emails from him forwarded to many people the kind of emails that passes by your eyes everyday but today it felt so different. I guess Mohamed Essam is one of those lucky people who inspired many people in his life and much more people after his death, one of the few people who left a legacy... i wish i knew him more ... May his soul and his mother's rest in peace and may God bless their souls and keep their memory in our lives.

Something i don't understand

Recently i found out that i am becoming something i can't understand, that small little fact is really blowing me off lately.

I'm becoming something different from everyone around me, one of the things that caught my attention lately is my total focus on my career path and achievement record, i even can't find any other interesting topic to talk about, i ran out of topics to talk to people about.

I'm finding it really hard to even talk to people who are non-engineers, i'm becoming something i can't understand and in my search for answers i feel more lost this isn't the only reason i feel lost that's one of the thoughts that came to my mind right now.

It's this time of year that you review your past and aim for your future, but how can i do so when i'm becoming something i can't understand .. something i don't understand (myself).

Yesterday

And the singer keeps singing "Yesterday"
I kept reading the words i wanted to say, i remembered when how the world seemed so small and how i was that close to a moment of happiness and suddenly everything didn't seem to go my way. as if something has ended the long story but infact it was a start of something i couldn't define or understand, while the thoughts are running so fast .. the singer is still singing slowly "Yesterday".

Kung Fu Panda

Quit, don't quit? Noodles, don't noodles? You are too concerned about what was and what will be. There is a saying: yesterday is history, tomorrow is a mystery, but today is a gift. That is why it

is called the "present".

Master Oogway - (Kung Fu Panda)

And i love her

"And i love her" is the beatles song and one of the most romantic songs i ever heard as part of my trial to understand what was it about, it turned out that Paul wrote this song to his fiance' Jane Asher.

So i just wanted to see how did the story of this song ends and it turned out that later after this song they broke up and it really makes me wonder can a guy with all these emotions put in a song leave her !! .. if so then what defines the words we write or maybe sometimes we have these enormous fake feelings, i just wonder how does Jane feels when she turns on the radio and hears this song and remembers that this was her song.

Till the last page ...

I always suffer from that weird attitude, which is; i never end something totally, i always reach its end and really get fed up and don't carry it forward.

For example, In my readings i never reach the end of the book or in other words i never survive till the last page even if the book was interesting and great i never have this will and courage to reach the last page.

These days in my college book i'm reading the last pages of it, and the very last page of my educational life but seems that my weird attitude is still taking place... May God help me this time to keep reading just for one time, Till the last page.

محاضرة نتوركس

الناهردة كان أول يوم ليَّ في الكلية وكان المعاد المعهود اللي استنيته كتير ... محاضرة نتوركس .... مفرووض ده المجال اللي أنا بأحلم إني اشتغل فيه وبقالي داخل على سنتين بذاكر فيه مع نفسي ... بس الناهردة اكتشفت جنب جديد قوي للنتوركس مكنتش أعرفه زمان وابتديت أسأل نفسي أنا ليه بحب النتوركس أصلا .. الغريبة كل الأسباب اللي في دماغي ما بقاش ليها معنى بعد محاضرة الناهردة .

اللي حصل الانهارده ببساطة إني اكتشفت حاجة غريبة جدا ... إن دكتور مادة في الكلية مسئول كبير جدا إنه يا اما يحببك في علم أو يكرهك فيه يعني أنا فيه وجهة نظري لو الناهردة كان أول مرة في حياتي أسمع عن النتوركس زي ناس كتير قوي في المدرج الناهردة أول مرة يسمعه مباديء النتوركس كان زماني كرهت المادة والعلم واللي عمل النتوركس أصلا بس لولا إني ذاكرته لوحدي وعرفت إيه الحلو والوحش فيه كان زماني أعد في المدرج بعيط أصلا .

المشكلة دلوقتي مش في النتوركس المشكلة في أيام وسنين اديتها في الكلية ... أنا الناهردة اكتشفت إن احتمال كبير قوي يكون عدى عليَّ مواد أو فروع علم ممكن تكون حلوة قوي زي النتوركس بس للأسف الدكاترة يكونوا زرعه جواية عدم قبول مادة ده أو العلم ده ونرجع نقول فاضل زلطة ونطلع بره

HAPPY NEW YEAR

Look @ the stars

This Picture inspired me to an idea .. i hope it works or at least i try to achieve it

London 2012

2012 Olympic Games

27 July-12 Aug 2012

see you there isA (just a reminder)

Questions

Life has many questions

The common answer is always i don't know

whether it's wrong or right to let go

or ask where other people couldn't go

Maybe tomorrow's goal will understand the soul

or maybe it's answer will be declared unknown

can we write the words that we dropped untold

freezing in the cold and left without even being born

Life has many questions

The common answer is always i don't know

and that's what makes it beautiful

That maybe

That maybe our story wasn't meant to be

time for our souls to be set free

but when it's cold and dark

and no one left to speak

.....

That maybe rain will drop around the window

feel the beauty of sunshine after the rainbow

won't you please come and let me be

the man i once used to be

.....

weird thoughts before i go to sleep

Egypt Match

Today was the expected match in the (Fifa world cup U-20) held in Cairo, The match was between Egypt and Paraguay.

And to tell you the truth i was happy that Egypt lost the match ... but to be more honest i was even wishing that Paraguay win the match, i saw in their players eyes the determination, the passion, the hard work and the persistence. All part of the equation the equation of life and the equation of success, Through the match i forgot that i'm Egyptian and the match is held in my town and just kept remembering this equation... maybe i just wanted to make sure it works or maybe i wanted to feel that this country truly deserve more down times to wake up.

Cast away

And I've lost her all over again. I'm so sad that I don't have Kelly. But I'm so grateful that she was with me on that island. And I know what I have to do now. I gotta keep breathing. Because tomorrow the sun will rise. Who knows what the tide could bring?

FIFA 94

Maybe one of the greatest games in my history i remember not spending less than 3 summer holidays on this game, it was back then that i thought this is the best game in history and really it was .. it was FIFA 94.

Few days ago i was watching a promo video for FIFA 2010 and i couldn't stop myself from remembering this game FIFA 94, for a moment or two i started to discover the major differences that took place in the game industry since 94 till 2010.

But i discovered that this great change in the game industry can be nothing compared to the huge change that happened to my life from someone who spends all his summer playing Fifa 94 to someone else, from that young kid to that grown up person; i'm still trying to understand, it seems that my relation with Fifa in engineering terms "Directly proportional" and as the game grows and change we change but we hardly notice.

If you think that FIFA game has changed a lot since 1994 then look at yourself and see how much you changed, and you'll find out that you changed much more than the game.

The curious case of benjamin button (5)

she had left a note .. she wrote "it was nice to have met you" and that was it.

This part of the movie when the lady benjamin was having an affair with leaves with her husband for war and she leaves him a note saying "It was nice to have met you" .. and that was it, how many people we meet in our lives that make a difference in our lives and the way we see it and how many people we just have to leave and forget and got nothing more to say at the end of the journey but .."It was nice to have met you".

HappYness(2)

This is maybe the second time to write about happiness the topic that never ends and always attracted people to write about, this time am talking about my happiness; recently sitting with myself i discovered a huge hole in my soul ... and after searching inside myself i discovered the problem lies in this simple word "HappYness" i just can't identify it , can't feel it and can't know its meaning. I tried to search for what makes me happy and i couldn't find a logical answer and this is causing me alot of inner dis-satisfaction cause whenever am tired and down i search for that something that just lightens my heart and soul and i can't identify it, i can't touch it and i can't feel it. it's always a pursuit but sometimes it's a pursuit of fake HappYness .

Ramdan this year

It's a weird feeling i have this year a feeling i never felt in the holy month of Ramdan, it's the feeling that something is missing or that something isn't going the right way, maybe the internal state i'm feeling these days have reflected to the way i see the month.

But i remember same time last year when i used to go out of home i used to smell ramdan and see it in the eyes of the kids and their parents ... but i can't feel it or touch this spiritual feeling this year or at least today which is the first day, it's either am the one who's feeling so or maybe this a new symptom of culture change in our country.

Anyway (: كل عام وأنتم بخير :)

Now i got no one left to pray for me .. maybe i should start thinking about praying for myself.

RIP my mother's aunt you left the world in silence i'll never forget you.

Slipping away

There was that thought in my head long ago that people i knew once, can never slip away those people with whom we shared unforgettable moments can never slip away, but as time moves on i get to realize that whether we want or not some people will just slip away ... These days people are really slipping away in a really fast rate, they're slipping away from my life and worse than that slipping away from my appreciation and care.

And as Moby said in his song ... Hold on to people they're slipping away.

Computer games

Today i was paying my young cousin a visit and he was showing me the new computer games on his PC and for a moment or two i remained silent, Actually i started to remember when i was his age i always did like him downloaded 2 or 3 games and kept playing them all summer long, I was never bored of these games.

I didn't believe that the day will come when i look at computer games and say what are these boring stuff i never thought that day would come, when i used to ask my parents why don't old people play computer games their answer was always "We have no patience to play such stuff".

Back then at the time i used to play i used to have really nothing to do but to play these games that's why i was never bored of them, but today at this moment of my life i think i really have no patience to waste 6 hours raising a child in the SIMS, back then i was able to do so but now i don't, i have lots to do more than just to waste it on a computer game.

And now i wonder has life become tougher or harder for me or is it still that simple and easy i don't know but what am sure of is that i miss that little kid worrying about nothing.

keep oscillating

كل يوم لما باصحى بأحس بإحساس جديد
وبدل ماألاقي في دماغي فكرة ألاقي الفكرة إتنين
كل يوم أحس إني تايه وال حيرة عمالة تزيد
كل ماكون سارح وشارد ألاقي أفكاري زي همومي عمالة تفيد
زي مايكون النوم هو حلي الوحيد
إني اهرب من عالم غريب وبعيد
لأني كل يوم لما باصحى بأحس بإحساس جديد

* just a trial to write in arabic lol :D

نعم سوف يجئ يوم نجلس فيه لنقص ونروى ماذا فعل كل منا في موقعه ... وكيف حمل كل منا أمانته وأدى دوره، كيف خرج الأبطال من هذا الشعب وهذه الأمة في فترة حالكة ساد فيها الظلام، ليحملوا مشاعل النور وليضيئوا الطريق حتى تستطيع أمتهم أن تعبر الجسر ما بين اليأس والرجاء." خطبة السادات بعد نصر اكتوبر

If we look at this speech from another point of view the view of today , eventhough it was said 37 years ago it still feels like it should be said today, it's time for us to just think of the future .. our country's future

While we were sleeping

There's always that weird fact which is no matter how suicidal thoughts you can get and no matter how hard you're on yourself , just try the act of going to bed and get some sleep and you'll find when you wake up all these thoughts just gone away, i wonder what kind of magic happens to make us feel so ... i wonder what happens to us "While we were sleeping".

I hope this effect happens to me today as it always does

Thought quote

"And only those who believes in angels, won't be afriad one day to find themselves flying away"

Ants

Have you ever wondered how ants live, and how do they imagine the world so big around them, and have you imagined yourself being an ant so small and lost around the globe ... cause whenever i see this video i get to realize how small we are. we are like ants lost in a desert sand searching for the truth.

Forrest gump

I really regret not watching this movie long ago... what really made me so curious to watch it is what i heard that it has many common things with the curious case of benjamin button .... but it's not, it's just so amazing.

"but at night time when there was nothing to do and the house was all empty,i'd always think of jenny"

Taking chance

That emotionally charged, moving film had its debut on HBO February 19. It tells the true story of the death of 19-year-old Marine Chance Phelps in Iraq in 2004 and the journey that Marine Lt. Col. Mike Strobl underwent after he volunteered to escort the body from Dover Air Force Base to Phelps’ hometown of Dubois, Wyoming. Strobl’s journal of that moving journey is the heart of the film.

After watching this movie i had lots of thoughts the main one is that the human relations and grief and sorrow is the same all over the world ... whether it's an american soldier is dead or just a normal arabian in baghdad, it's just the same sorrow and grief, and i petty all these young men gone for war by their politicians and causing all this pain and sorrow not just to the victim's family but to a whole bunch of people ... it's a great movie to see and in the end it's a dream that's nearly impossible to come true but i really wish we put all wars all over the world to an end :(

End of exams

This year unlike any other year i'm telling to you the truth i'm not so happy with the end of my exams ofcourse am happy that they're over but am not happy with myself.

I feel am wasting my time, this period was so bad for me and i don't know really why? i never ever had this saturation from studying ... and now am starting the holiday and i feel am saturated from everything else maybe it's the fact that nothing stays the same ... but in my case everything seems to be the same with no dramatic change (from inside).

Through the past week these words from steve jobs address were ringing in my ears so loud all the time.

I had no idea what I wanted to do with my life and no idea how college was going to help me figure it out. And here I was spending all of the money my parents had saved their entire life. So I decided to drop out and trust that it would all work out OK. It was pretty scary at the time, but looking back it was one of the best decisions I ever made. The minute I dropped out I could stop taking the required classes that didn't interest me, and begin dropping in on the ones that looked interesting.

Maybe cause i did so bad in the last 2 exams, made me really wonder am i going in the right track there are two contradicting thoughts right now either am facing brick walls or either i'm not following the signs that tells me stop and stare.

It's just the end of the exams but the start of a new life's exam.

It's this time of the year that you put your old papers aside ..to free space for some air and another light.

Batman Begins (Confront your fear)

BRUCE: The first time I stole
so that I wouldn 't starve, yes.

I lost many assumptions about
the simple nature of right and wrong.

And when I traveled...

...I learned the fear before a crime...

...and the thrill of success.
.....

DUCARD: You've traveled the world
to understand the criminal mind...

...and conquer your fears.

But a criminal is not complicated.

And what you really fear
is inside yourself.

You fear your own power.

You fear your anger...

...the drive to do great
or terrible things.

Now you must journey inwards.

You are ready.

Breathe.

Breathe.

Breathe in your fears.

Face them.

To conquer fear,
you must become fear.


You must bask in the fear
of other men.

And men fear most
what they cannot see.

Testing 1,2,3,....

It's my final exams night and as usual i must write my pre-exam thoughts, basically this exam is my last written exam for this year isA, and i do believe this period of my life was one of the most boring ever, through my entire life i never felt so saturated with knowledge and education and for me studying the last days was like taking injections.

Now i got the feeling that the exams has got me i feel that i don't want to read anything or write or even think i'm just too tired to even sleep.

One of the things i got to discover in myself through this period of my life and which is a really bad thing ... is that my definition of happiness isn't clear enough i'm searching but couldn't find an answer to this question what makes me happy.... i really don't know.

I can't hear the music

Is it ever gonna stop? Will they ever let you go?

You're in a rush, they don't care enough 'cause their lives are very slow
Time is ticking on. You don't get a second shot.
And when you sell you soul for a leading role, will The Lost Souls be forgot?

And if I can't hear the music and the audience is gone
I'll dance here on my own
And I hope the Lonely Hearts' Club band will play out one last song
Before the sun goes down

James blunt -- all the lost souls

Twins

This topic is different i had it in my pending lists to be written, it happened about 2 months ago or something and what happened is that i was at the club studying in the guests' hall... and as normal people come and go, but what really caught my attention was that beautiful blonde girl that just entered the room ... and what really caused me a thought is afterwards by few moments an identical her entered the room actually they were twins... the thought here is let's say if i wanted someday to meet a girl and fall in love with ... and if she had a twin sister what would happen in this situation that identical looking situation ... you'll have to use your feelings and heart before your mind cause the looks are the same and maybe that's what they call true love ... it's the feeling that doesn't fall under the category of looks but far beyond.

ME VS MICROPROCESSOR

I got nothing more to say on my exam night except those few meaningful words

حسبي الله ونعم الوكيل

Me VS Control

As usual exam night and it's something like 2 Am i was supposed to be in bed an hour ago ... but as usual i must write my random thought on exam's night and mainly i'll be talking about my life long struggle with this subject CONTROL ...

I always believed that i had the passion and ability to learn and love any subject i learn, but this rule was broken for that subject maybe because my basics in it is totally rotten or maybe because it doesn't make any sense ... eventhough i took dozens of subjects that doesn't make any sense but for me i believe that at 3rd year i can't bear really to be taking a subject that i can't touch and i can't feel.

There are two ways to succeed in something it's either to love it so much or to hate it so much and that's my case with networks and control........ i hope so at least for tomorrow.

تحدى الملل

امتحانات هندسة عين شمس ....... تحدى الملل

GTA

So basically these days i really enjoy playing that really old game (GTA 1) and what i do is simply get the nerves out of the cops and keep running away from them exactly as shown in the picture attached.

These days in my life i feel i'm really running and the problem is that the one's running trying to catch me isn't the cops it's something worse, there are actually many things trying to catch me and hunt me down ... those are my fears my old memories and my exams ..... and worse than them all myself.

فى صالون العقاد

I'm not amazed by the amount of knowledge in that book ... nor by "Abbas el akkad" himself i'm just amazed by the way people in Egypt used to be cultured and well educated... and i really start to like el 3akad way of thinking .... Egypt was so rich with such great thinkers and it makes me wonder what happened to us these days.

Steve Jobs' 2005 Stanford Commencement Address

Quotes from Steve jobs speech that i think will change the way i look at my life these days:

Quote1: Of course it was impossible to connect the dots looking forward when I was in college, but it was very, very clear looking backwards 10 years later. Again, you can't connect the dots looking forward. You can only connect them looking backwards, so you have to trust that the dots will somehow connect in your future. You have to trust in something--your gut, destiny, life, karma, whatever--because believing that the dots will connect down the road will give you the confidence to follow your heart, even when it leads you off the well-worn path, and that will make all the difference.

Quote2: I didn't see it then, but it turned out that getting fired from Apple was the best thing that could have ever happened to me. The heaviness of being successful was replaced by the lightness of being a beginner again, less sure about everything. It freed me to enter one of the most creative periods in my life.

Quote3: It was awful-tasting medicine but I guess the patient needed it. Sometimes life's going to hit you in the head with a brick. Don't lose faith.

Quote4: For the past 33 years, I have looked in the mirror every morning and asked myself, "If today were the last day of my life, would I want to do what I am about to do today?" And whenever the answer has been "no" for too many days in a row, I know I need to change something

Quote5: Having lived through it, I can now say this to you with a bit more certainty than when death was a useful but purely intellectual concept. No one wants to die, even people who want to go to Heaven don't want to die to get there, and yet, death is the destination we all share. No one has ever escaped it. And that is as it should be, because death is very likely the single best invention of life. It's life's change agent; it clears out the old to make way for the new. right now, the new is you. But someday, not too long from now, you will gradually become the old and be cleared away. Sorry to be so dramatic, but it's quite true. Your time is limited, so don't waste it living someone else's life. Don't be trapped by dogma, which is living with the results of other people's thinking. Don't let the noise of others' opinions drown out your own inner voice, heart and intuition. They somehow already know what you truly want to become. Everything else is secondary.

"Stay hungry , Stay foolish"

Those moments ...

You know these moments that you had .. the feeling that's caught between joy and fear and indifference .. these moments that just makes you worried and sad and dissastisfied from yourself... these moments that becomes a memory for tomorrow to remember.

cause i feel all these moments right now.

I'm so dissatisfied from my studying performance for this exam and as one friend told me ... you'll be rewarded by your performance all year long and not through these few days ( i hope so ), and am gonna try to focus more on the next exams isA.

How well do you know ..me ?

I'm currently feeling a mix of emotions as you know exams and it's bad timings awaken many memories and many hopes and fears ... so basically all i wanted to do is to talk so here i am in my blog writting few useless talk.

There's that stupid thing lately on facebook and it's an application basically called how well do you know (X) where X belongs to one of your friends and it's expanding in a really fast way and my news feed is filled with it... and i was really thinking about this quiz and i wondered what will my performance be in the quiz how well do you know (X) ... where X equals me .... and the answer is i don't know.

I Need To Wake Up

Have I been sleeping?

I've been so still
Afraid of crumbling
Have I been careless?
Dismissing all the distant rumblings
Take me where I am supposed to be
To comprehend the things that I can't see

Cause I need to move
I need to wake up
I need to change
I need to shake up
I need to speak out
Something's got to break up
I've been asleep
And I need to wake up
Now

** Academy award winning song from the movie (An Inconvenient Truth)

His favorite song

And he keeps playing his favorite song

and thinks it'll revive him all night long
keeps repeating its beautiful words
and hear its rhythem inside his soul
watch the future glimpsing with all its goals
And he keeps playing his favorite song
Till he see the first shred of the dawn
and it's just another night for him, all alone

Fragile

If blood will flow when fresh and steel are one

Drying in the colour of the evening sun
Tomorrows rain will wash the stains away
But something in our minds will always stay
Perhaps this final act was meant
To clinch a lifetimes argument
That nothing comes from violence and nothing ever could
For all those born beneath an angry star
Lest we forget how fragile we are

I can't believe

I can't believe i'm starting to forget you

leaving my heart and soul with unforgotten memory.
Your picture is fading from my mind's screen,
everything now appears so clear.
I can't believe i'm starting once again,
Am Flying away to another far away space
Seeing the world without the shades of your face
I can't believe i'm starting to forget you.
you've been there for so long,
and at the end of the journey
life goes on ...

You can be

You can be as far as the highest stars

and as close as my wildest dream
You can be as high as an old tree
and as close as its roots to the sea
You can be whoever you want to be
but try to be as close as you can to me

Uptown girl

Who can forget such an old song ohhh ... memories

Chance

Tired of waiting for my chance ... to rise and shine

The curious case of benjamin button (4)

This part was said by the old man who keeps telling benjamin Did I ever tell you, I was struck by lightning 7 times?

Did I ever tell you,
I was struck by lightning 7 times?

Once I was walking
the dog down the road.

( A silent moment ) ....
............
I'm blind in the one eye,
can't hardly hear.

I get twitches and shakes
out of nowhere,

I always lose my line of thought.

But you know what?

God keeps reminding me I'm lucky to be alive.

These were the final words said by the old man .. and he didn't appear again in the movie ..

That place

Nile fm forums

You know what no matter how dead that place seems now, i still believe ... that was one of the best things i ever did and one of the best places i've ever been and one of the best moments of my life where spent there, and no matter how bad things went at the end ... i'm still satisfied with our output.

Am ain't

Am ain't that strong

Am ain't that weak either
It ain't my only dream
It ain't yours either
You ain't that far
You ain't that close either
Am ain't that strong
Am ain't that weak either

The sugar

I remember when i had my interview in ACES 07 with HR head she asked me a question ... why would you like to join ACES ? and my answer was simple ..

I told her i believe college for me without ACES is like tea without sugar....

Back then i considered ACES one of the most important sugar in my life that adds taste to the tea ... the sour and tasteless tea.

After spending this year out of ACES, i made a big mistake i'm still paying its dept. what i did was simply trying to drink the tea without adding any sugar to it, till i realized that this year is nearlly over but i can't keep drinking .

It's not about ACES is the sugar what am talking about is that In your life you must always keep searching for sugar that makes your tea not only of good taste but of life worth value.

In the end of august

The curious case of benjamin button (3)

Daisy: What are you thinking of ?

Benjamin: I was thinking of how nothing lasts ....
Benjamin: And what a shame that is ..
Daisy: Somethings last .....

"Risk it for a biscuit"

Back to the good old days of Nile fm radio station and to be more clear to the big drive home show ohh.. memories can flood for years with that station and its shows, i remembered there used to be a really big competetion on the "Big drive home" it was called risk it for a biscuit -which is cadbury biscuit chocolate - and i can't really remember what it was all about but this name really got through my mind right now those 5 simple words "Risk it for a biscuit"

Cause these days i really feel i won't get any biscuits in my life unless i risk it .. and am left with the thought that i really need to "Risk it for a biscuit".

The curious case of benjamin button (2)

There was that part of the movie, when "daisy" got hit by the car the way they showed it; was really clever they showed us how many tiny things could have happened that daisy wouldn't have been hit by the car.

And benjamin ended the story by saying

"But life is being what it is, a series of intersecting lives and incidents out of anyone's control.. the taxi wouldn't have hit daisy"

It's really weird feeling i have now, is that taking a look at my life and how much i intersected with lives and incidents some were in my hands and many others were out of my control .. those tiny lives and incidents i passed through is what made me who i am today.

Many things in my life could have dramatically changed if a really tiny thing happened, all my life path would have changed but in the end ... somethings happen for a reason we may or may not know and there's always things that happen out of our control.

I believe somethings will never happen unless they're meant to be .. so i decided to let go and whatever will be .. will be isA.