A movie

These days, i feel that my life is exactly like a movie and all that's missing from it is ... soundtrack in the background

مسألة مبدأ

كل الجروح ليها دوا يا طير يا حايم في الهوا

اطوى الجناح على الجراح وياللا نطير سوا

أنا مش حابيع الصدق بالأكاذيب

ولا أقولش للحمل الوديع يا ديب

ولا أقولش للديب يا أعز حبيب

والصدق مهما عز

في الأزمة مش حاهتَّز

ساعات يكون كتم الأنين أصدق

وأنا مهما أقع راح أقوم

ودي .. مسألة مبدأ

بيكدبوا الصدق لما الكدب يتصدق

يا ليل تطول

بكرة تلقى الفجر بيشقشق

أنا فى انتظار الصباح

أنا احتويت الجراح

وخلاص نسيت اللى راح

ومن جديد حابدأ

ودي .. مسألة مبدأ

عبد الرحمن الأبنودي - عمر خيرت - على الحجار

Life is strange

I don’t know why I had this feeling right now, that “life is totally strange” filled with odds and it’s getting harder and harder for me to understand it. The more I grow the more I realize how hard its equation is….. confusion of thoughts you may think but yeah, it’s really weird to prove it; let me try this with you ; just close your eyes right now and imagine you’re one year ago from today and think of what you’d have been thinking of, think of people you’ve met in one year, changes that took place in your personality and life’s of people around you, just think of these changes that took place in one year try to remember what were you thinking about and what you’ve been dreaming of. And believe me after you do this exercise you’ll get to realize that really life is so strange.

Run

I no longer have to run.

I ain't gonna chase your lighting sun.
I need to catch my breath.
I'm tired of running without a rest.

It's time for me to slow down,
ain't gonna be for you a face in the crowd.
I no longer have to run ,
I ain't gonna chase your lighting star
cause the more i try,
the more i realize you're heading far.

I can feel that you're fading away
That's when i realized
I no longer have to run

الملل ام الاختراع

Today at a lecture a friend was talking about how boring the lecture is and said

الملل ام الاختراع

and we all had a good laugh about it but when i thought about it now i realized that it's so true most of my all time creative acts were a result of boredom and not a need (el 7aga) it was just the fact that sometimes you have nothing to do, so all you do is bring about a crazy new idea or do something u never did before and suddenly i see that really

الملل ام الاختراع

من لم يكن.......

I remember long ago i was watching a movie in TV i can't remember it's name or what was it about i just saw one scene which had the quote saying " من لم يكن الموت له عظة فلا واعظ له" which means that if you don't get experience or wisdom from death then no one can ever help you ... whatever, through the past days i keep recalling this quote cause my grandmother's death was like a turning point for me maybe because i saw the end of a human the grave and all that stuff and i realized that many things inside and outside of me i need to change before going there ... to the place of no return

In silence

They leave our world in silence

leaving us with nothing but endless memories
they leave our world in peace
with relatives praying for eternal peace
they leave our world after a prayer
and the prayers for them will never stop
they leave our world in silence
leaving us with nothing but a memory
and hope .. R.I.P

What IF ? !!

What if i haven't entered faculty of engineering ain-shams university and entered the GUC with the offered scholarship ? a question that poped through my mind a few hours ago .. and oh my that's the hell of a question and more a hell of an answer, the answer is simply i don't know ..

But trying to find an answer to this question, i realized that my real turning point in this life was faculty of engineering ASU and i can't imagine myself in some other place i just remembered all the faces i knew in that place and all the situations and all the changes i passed through in that place and all of a sudden i forgot the question "What if" and asked my self "What if not ?"

el 7mdolilah everything happens for a reason we may know or not know

ICY TOWER

It seems to me that life is nothing but an icy tower we keep on climbing seeking the high score and the great combo rounds, we keep on climbing and we don't know when will we fall and the thing is .. the clock keeps ticking.

ABC

ABC..... teach me how to write and read
sometimes we're to blind to see
the truth that hide behind our dreams
tell me the language you need
so i can tell you what's real

ABC.... teach me how to write and read
when the letters are lost beyond our soul
we got nothing to say and no where to go
will you guide me back home

ABC... teach me how to write and read
cause i forgot how to ...
and i need your words to set me free

Nothing

Don't know why i wanted just to let out few stuff, i am here in my favorite place for writing and i just want to write because i have nothing else to do to feed my soul.
The main problem is that i have nothing planned to be written or am i ready to crack up my mind cause there's only 2 or 3 topics inside my head and sadly enough i can't share them with anyone and more sadly i can't handle them and the worst of all ... is that i feel lost.

CISCO .. life

I don't know but i'm feeling exactly like that guy wearing red, when i'm studying cisco these days i feel that everyone around me is out of my world and that they're all running and all the focus is only on me and my studies, it's such a great picture to tell the people am learning at cisco :S

The magic box !!

When memories meet your eyes with something like that "my magic old box" .. when i saw it i couldn't prevent my self from saying AHHhhh... you know i remembered that the day i got that magic box was one of the happiest days of my life back when i was a kid .. i guess i spent all night sleeples on it. For me it was a dream coming true having a nintendo at home for me containing marvellous games like " Captain majed" and " Turtles" that was like heaven for me.

Now i look at it that little white-blue box dead and full of dust that same box was once like heaven to me, it's really a weird world and it keeps getting weirder as we grow older don't you think so ?

Valentine reverse phsycology

The reverse phsycology of valentine that i call is that i believe egyptian people or to be precise singles suffer from.

Is that instead of being sad that they don't have a valentine date or girl friend or whatever, all they do is keep cursing that day and it seems that the world has ended i don't know some people even go far beyond that and whenever they see someone wearing red or getting a rose or something they just keep saying "3amo el 7abeeb" what i believe in these people is that if they had a girl friend they'd have done the same .... we suffer from that here and to me whoever does that and keep cursing the date 14th february is just suffering that he/she is single that's all and instead of showing it he runs away from his within .. so they just keep cursing the day :D

For me i believe that day is special for those people who think it's special, those people who have found their special ones .. since i haven't got one and many of my friends as well so i want to wish you all enjoy that day in the next years isA :)

And i was just thinking of a song to dedicate in valentine day and i couldn't find a better song for me than Oasis- Wonderwall

Inspire by example

A couple of weeks ago we were in a visit to the book fair with few of my friends and we passed by the human development section in one of the book stores, so my friend just kept looking at them and said .... "I want to burn all this section .. i want to let people not waste money on this useless stuff" the thing is i didn't want to argue with him but at the same time i just stopped by myself and asked it did really these stuff help me or not ?

All am gonna try to do in these few lines is to think loudly about this issue; did reading the 7 habits change my life or who moved my cheese ... well i guess yes, but not forever they were just like a momentary action it took me weeks to just keep repeating their pinky world and quotes but it didn't last forever, the thing is about these stuff is that it brings you great motivation and slowly steal it away from you.

I remember now the major changes in my life weren't gained from these books but more with inspiration by real life stories that i saw around me which helped me to become what i am now.

These days am really thinking of a new method of human development far beyond the theoretical part all the writers follow or think about they just keep giving advices .. it's nice but won't be effective i want to develop something called inspire by example it's a method for teaching human development but using success stories i think doing this is much more effective than developing science that can be boring and i want to make it in an indirect way, i mean i won't be telling the student you're learning human development, i'll be telling him i'm just narrating a nice story and eventually he'll be inspired by the story in a way or another.

Anyway the most important thing to end the battle about self help books .. is that we need to call them help yourself books because no body can change if he/she don't have the will to do so whether with a book or without one and whatever method they're gonna use .. it's just the will of change that moves us forward.