Back to where i started

I'm back to where i started
i sailed the sees crossed the oceans
but the world is round
so i'm just back where i started
i set to sail around the globe
i tried to reach for home
but seems that am back where i started
tried to fly so high
spread my wings out and cry
but i ended where i started
it was a journey worth the take
and i feel am back to my lost state
i'm just back to where i started

Inspiron

Back to about one or two years ago mm.. or even more i still remember that planet rock show with Safi and it was the rock your mind hour .. you know when u hear a radio topic that you just can't resist leaving all what you do to think about it - it was one of those - he was talking about using just 3 words to describe all you've passed through in your life i remember SMSing the answer to that question after deep thought

1- Learning 2- Achieving 3- Changing

After all these days and these times since i last SMS'ed safi and the 3 words didn't change one of my hopes for the start of the year is to change # 3 from Changing to Inspiring i wish to reach the stable state of inner confidence .. i know it's impossible for anyone to reach that state but i just want to be close to it in a way that i can start the inspiring phase and that's one of my hopes for 2009 isA

النية

When i used to be in ACES last year i noticed that very small note the academic committee head always made sure that it's presence is clear everywhere they go it's just one simple word written with a smile النية yesterday while having my daily thoughts that word just flashed through my mind and everything seemed so clear to me at that very moment .. it's who we are and who we want to be and who we would be is related to that really simple word it's النية

"نقطة و من اول السطر"

when i used to be at school their used to be that really stupid dictation exams where the teacher just keeps dictating and we write what she says, i used to fear these exams more than anything wheather it's a "habby or happy " or other stupid spelling mistakes, but what i remember now so clearly is the word the teacher used to say to end a paragraph and start a new one she always used to say"نقطة و من اول السطر"
i realized these days that these words are just so deep it's just a point and you end a paragraph it's simply life or the phases we pass through they're just paragraphes in our lives and all we have to do is to start a new line and just say "نقطة و من اول السطر"

Step 7: Helping others

Step 7:It's not by necessary charity or whatever it is .. it's just the smile you can put on anyone's face whether they're close or far from you try always to be a helping hand and you won't regret it

Step 6:

Ask people around you for feedback it helps you to see the part of you that you can't see and the part of you, you don't expect to see.

i realized one thing from my so far one month of torture that many things just come to my face these days that i don't expect that guides me whenever i feel lost .. ex. let's say am thinking of why do i always feel bad about something and out of nowhere an answer comes through seeing someone or watching a quote .. nature helps i believe so far whenever i feel am giving up

HappYness

It can always be considered the best inspiring movie of all time it gave me guide to many things in my confused mind while i was watching it now it's the pursuit of humans it's the pursuit of happYness

Sacrifice concept

When I used to be in secondary stage there used to be that subject called economics and we used to have a teacher who used to make her lesson based on interaction I’ll always remember that lesson; it was like the introductory class for the whole syllabus and we talked about the definition of a need and how’s it essential to satisfy it with various means and we talked about another concept which I really recall now this concept was “Sacrifice” it says that to satisfy your need by a certain mean you have to take some sacrifices, if my life equation now is economics this concept would typically be applied to it the fear of sacrifice and it’s tough really to sacrifice something for something all when life doesn’t give you the chance to have it all …

Goodmorning sunshine

Good morning sunshine after the rain
A new day has come to live it with no pain
spread light on the city's heart and soul
it's no use to be alone anymore
Good morning sunshine after the night
it's been so dark and cold outside
now maybe it's time to rise and shine
leave all our yesterday's behind
Good morning sunshine, maybe it's just the time
For us to smile for a brand new day

Step:5 KYOB

After few days of my big month of change i realized a really important thing that change isn't that easy at all .. and one friend told me that you dont need to change at first place because you have to accept yourself as you're the idea is that my first steps toward change were too deep and too difficult for anyone it took me till now like two or three days of total give up to continue the change month .. but today i feel that i must carry on for many reasons because that would be a total failure and a failure ain't that good second i realized that the things am gonna change won't harm me it's just few decisions that has to be made it's not about changing my hair color or my way of dealing with others its about setting guidelines for the next at least year ...

KYOB: A term used by one of my friends it's the appreviation to Kick Your Own Butt maybe sometimes we just have to kick our own butts even though it's physically impossible but doing so is much better than having people kick yours .. so to carry on this month of change i decided to KMOB

Step 4:

realizing how important step 3 is :D and getting to know much more about myself it was all so messed up in my mind when i did something i always feared and got through it i just feel that i have a total shift of paradigm i feel i can do many things the idea of having a month of change seems to be working well so far i just need to get it more organized

Step 4 : Preparing for change (shifting paradigms)

Step 3:

Step 3: Doing the things i've been always afraid to do that's a good thing to do really so if you can try anything you've been always afraid to try just let it go and you got nothing to lose today i just tried that thing and i don't know where will it lead me :) but all i know is that i feel happy

2- Defining

Step2 : Defining

-what are the things you want to change in your life?

the things in (*) won't be shared in the blog :)

1-Be closer to God

one of the things i really lack these days is being not as close as possible to God or at least as i used to be maybe it's not that i'm away it's that the world am in these days is such a busy world with high hopes i have i get too busy to just at least stop and stare i have no time to even get focused as i used to be long time ago.

2-Have a clear vision

Even though this year is way much better than last year concerning my vision definition but still it needs some modifications due to certain errors and certain feeling that it could be better and stronger .. i've lived all my life searching for a vision and at last i reached a good point these days that i'm proud of but somehow i just need more defined and clearer one.

3-Make clear decisions concerning them (*)
4-Stop bad stuff (*)
5-combat my fear concerning .... (*)

6-Have inner satisfaction

i guess if i solved the upper mentioned points i'll reach a state of inner satisfaction i want to reach a life balance that when i lay my head on my bed i feel satisfied with everything i did , i want not to blame myself for things i didn't do i just want to reach that state of inner satisfaction

7-Be proactive and step forward

I guess i won't be a great person in life if i keep my head under the pillow and not be proactive enough and show the world my quality i want to take many steps forward into life .. i just wanna be a person of trust and able to work in any environment maybe you won't understand a thing from that ... but i understand :)

why i'm writing this here ?

1- I know that nearly no one still checks that blog (a)
2- I believe i got nothing to be ashamed of all i want to do is try to reach a total state of change and achieve my year's goal it's like an experiment am trying it on myself and if it succeeds maybe i can help many other people.

"When we lie on our beds and thinking we're about to die , we won't regret things we did but we'd regret things we didn't" Randy paush

this quote keeps nudging in my head :)

each day i'll try to work on one of the points mentioned above and change them in the 1 hour of self discovery i assigned everyday till the end of 2008.

One month to change

The best thing about it when a year comes to an end is that you get to see how far you went and how much did you achieve .. the problem with this year really is that i had a really tough challenge for the year 2008 and so far i haven't well achieved my goal for 2008 which was "to find myself and not to be happy but to be satisfied" getting to realize that the year is comming to an end i haven't yet achieved my goal makes me feel kind of bad ...

so i'm setting a challenge to myself here i am in my blog announcing that isA by the end of this month i'll achieve my goal eventhough it's not tangible and not realistic but i wanna achieve it i'll try to share my thoughts about it here everyday through this month if i find methods to achieve it

StEp 1 : The will to start through this month 1 hour each day of deep thoughts

Shall i reconsider ?

My birth date

Bringing analysis to my BD i found it really interesting seeing famous people born on 28/2 that nearly most of them are either writers,singers,composers and actors and it's really weird how nearly most of them are like that it made me think that maybe i should have been a writer or something .. mm i 'm already one :D but the thing that stopped me really i found someone famous born on the same year of mine

1988 - Markéta Irglová, Czech songwriter and actress

and i was like ok let's check who's that girl who was born the same day of mine and nearly my same age and to tell you about her she's an academy award winner song writer and actress

• Academy Award 2008 Achievement in Music Written for a Motion Picture (Original Song) - "Falling Slowly" from Once
• Critics' Choice Award 2008 Best Original Song - "Falling Slowly" from Once
• Los Angeles Film Critics Association Award 2008 Best Original Score - for Once

and that made me just stop and look at myself and say that's weird that she did all that while i'm still here and didn't make that kind of achievement or really solid ground achievement days go by so fast and we don't know .. who knows maybe tomorrow brings something new

enjoy my same day singer song :)

Do you ?

Do you ?
cause i feel it in a weird way too
it's there in my thoughts and mind
i can't figure out if it's wrong or right
you seem to be a long hope
but just far away to hold
Do you ?
i can feel it in your eyes
it's long call for tomorrow's shine
people are there around you
but deep inside i feel you're lost
so why don't we just sing together our favorite songs
Do you ?

or maybe you don't

to an unknown person that i feel i'm also unkown to

The great depression

Have you ever felt that everything around you has a bad memory and everything surrounding you is aiding that feeling .. the feeling of depression the feeling of sadness the feeling of being lost cause these days specially, everything got meaning and it only brings me down don't know how did my state reach that state am in now... am simply in the state of the great depression.

On and on the rain will fall
Like tears from a star
like tears from a star
On and on the rain will say
How fragile we are
How fragile we are

Sting... fragile

You don't see me

From keane's song "you don't see me"

Like beautiful dawns, all made up and bright
Radiant people, in splintering light
All moving at the speed of life
Reflecting in each others' eyes
But you're moving so fast
Through this beautiful scene
You don't see me

You don't see me

Randy pausch R.I.P

For the past few days i was obsessed by that guy and his" last lecture " this guy is so inspiring in a way no one can imagine i wish one day i could be like him in the way he has a life prespective Raundy pausch maybe dead but i guess he left enough inspiration for the whole world to love him and be sad about him ... Raundy pausch R.I.P

One more brick

one more brick over the building
can make it just perfect
or could simply collapse it
lost in thoughts gone with hope
seen the world ups and downs
i still cant seem to understand
if the brick i need
would make it perfect
or simply collapse it

It comes and it goes

These days it just comes and it goes ....

MSN memories

Great song ...

I just love this lyrics it kinds of relate to many of us it's metallica the unforgiven 3
always loved their unforgiven songs but this one is so good :) .. here's the lyrics

How could he know this new dawn's light
Would change his life forever?
Set sail to sea but pulled off course
By the light of golden treasure

Was he the one causing pain
With his careless dreaming?
Been afraid, always afraid
Of the things he's feeling
He could just be gone
He would just sail on
He would just sail on

How can I be lost?
If I've got nowhere to go?
Searched for seas of gold
How come it's got so cold?
How can I be lost?
In remembrance I relive
And how can I blame you
When it's me I can't forgive?

These days drift on inside a fog
It's thick and suffocating
This seeking life outside its hell
Inside intoxicating
He's run aground like his life
Water's much too shallow
Slipping fast down with the ship
Fading in the shadows now

A castaway
Blame all gone away
Blame gone away

How can I be lost
If I've got nowhere to go?
Searched for seas of gold
How come it's got so cold?
How can I be lost?
In remembrance I relive
And how can I blame you
When it's me I can't forgive?

Forgive me, forgive me not
Forgive me, forgive me not
Forgive me, forgive me not
Forgive me, forgive me
Why can't I forgive me?

Set sail to sea but pulled off course
By the light of golden treasure
How could he know this new dawn's light
Would change his life forever

How can I be lost
If I've got nowhere to go?
Searched for seas of gold
How come it's got so cold?
How can I be lost?
In remembrance I relive
So how can I blame you
When it's me I can't forgive?

Back to my shell

I just want to be back to my shell
i miss being there all by my self
i want to be back to me
and no one else i'd rather see
i just want to be back to my shell
tired of lies hi's and goodbyes
tired of trying to be
i Just want to be back to my shell

The big bang machine

I was watching this documentary about the big bang machine and ohh my .. what was that i thought for a second or two i was watching a science fiction movie or something that's not real or can never be this is considerent the most expensive scientific experiment on earth .. it tries to reformulate the big bang (That's when the whole universe started) i just kept watching it and i felt amazed for how we as humans just keep searching for answers and still with all what we think is advanced technology we don't know the basics of the basics of this universe we're nothing but a sand drop in an endless desert, through watching this documentary i remembered the movie contact one of my all time favorite movies it's nearly the same idea but with different prespective the quest for knowing why and the strange thing is that the smaller we search for something like an electron or atom we build such massive stuff.

The question that lies in my head and i keep searching for answers for it even after having great curiousity to see this experiment comming to life is .. is it really worth spending 6 billion dollars on such experiments arent there many people in msasive need for that money, what would we benefit if we get the answer to those scientists questions .. really i don't know but i have to say that's one of the most impressive thing i've ever seen in my life, i wish one day i could work in such environment who knows :) .

here's part 1 of the documentary you can check the rest of the videos at this link

http://www.youtube.com/view_play_list?p=57AFCCB98A0BFBD5

now

I feel am running in hundred different direction and i don't know which way leads back to me.

Can't read you

Long time ago exactly in preparatory stage i used to walk every day for like two hours at home doing nothing but thinking about life maybe i was dreaming or was thinking .. i did nothing in this period of my life except thinking and thinking of why are we here and how my life could be in the future i always thought about my feelings and i became in a very efficient way able to identify everything happening inside me.

Sometimes i regret wasting that part of my life but on the other side i feel if i havent passed through that period i'd not have been what i am today and had these many thoughts and maybe i wouldn't have been a poet or a thinker.

I'm saying all this because it led to me that i can read people without speaking it became a challenge that i can read minds from everywhere even random people in the street i just look at them and feel how they feel try to have empathy with them... but there's only one person i totally can't read i can't even figure out what do they think or how do they feel for the first time i feel failure in my talent which is reading minds .. i want to tell that person simply i can't read you.


enjoy the song :)

mmm..

imagine urself having a dream and you can't figure out what it means and you can't ask how or why .

Life is a network

A few days ago i discovered that i can use network terminologies in my status messages on facebook and now i realize that every network term can be a double meaning to something in my head it's amazing that everything in this life is interconncected exactly like a network we have high cost paths and low cost .. we have ups and downs and networks failures, sometimes it's easy to ping send and recieve and other times you just have a destination host un-reachable or request time out, the beauty of this life is that wherever you go the more you know .. and the more you know the more you realize how small you're ..

Scream

Low tesma7eely

Hany adel deserves round of an applause for that song just love it ... he's always been one of my all time favorite singers its the simplicity of the voice and the lyrics enjoy

Under the water

I wrote your name under the water
but the waves just swept it away
tried to dig it in the sand
but time didn't give it a chance to stay
i wrote your name under the water
and i wasn't sad cause it was blown away
cause in my mind it'll always remain

Leave

Long ago when my friends used to tell me we're leaving that country i used to say no way i leave this country or think about going anywhere else, i always believed that we all think the mistake is with others but we always forget that we're others to every one living here.

I don't know but now i really feel one day i'll have to go i don't know i feel like i'm moving in a direction where the majority aren't following i have to admit many people i know are moving in my same track but the most of Egyptians are moving in a way while i'm moving in another one this country needs the hell of a change hope that day comes so i decide to stay not to leave.

Water tap

A couple of days ago i had the water cut out from our home for like 6 hours, it's amazing how few things in life that we rarely notice; like water presence in our home, when they're cut out your whole life turns into a total mess, we rarely recognize the various blessings in our life don't we.

so if you go now and open the tap and find water flowing through your hands know that you're in a bless :) .

Dear blog ,

Dear blog ,

I hope this message i'm writing reach you in the best conditions ever, how are you doing it seems that i haven't been in touch with you for very long time but forgive me it's life it can keep us busy and away from the dearest people to us not only you my blog but many people in my life, i'm just to busy to even say Hi.

Through the past period my dear friend i've been through many ups and downs and life just keeps rolling like a train it goes and never stop but the problem my friend that for once i had the chance for my train to stop, but it seems i miss the air coming from the window of it i miss to see the train moving once again, even though; i was so tired and bored from the journey but isn't it true that sometimes we hate whatever state we're in.

Dear blog i'm writing you that message after not finding anyone to write for that message seems that you're always loyal to me even though i always let you down
but forgive me cause i'm living in the land of confusion i'm just taking some time down to realize what i am and where i should be tough questons but will decide many future stuff in my life so i have to be careful.

Dear blog just wish me luck.

Hope to hear from you soon,

Best Regards
Ahmed Negm

The video that changed me

This video had a great effect on my soul hope it changes u like it did to me

The Moment Of Truth

Watching the show the moment of truth and wondered will i be afraid to participate on that show i wondered which questions would i fear the most to be asked about i wondered what things in life i feel ashamed of it's the hard to think about that i wish i had a moment of truth just to let all what's inside of me but will that benefit me or harm me.

The question is how many of us had really a one moment of truth

قلم رصاص

سالنى قلمى الرصاص ماذا تريد ان تكتب قلت له لا أعلم

The Metro

It's been a long time since i wrote here while on the contrary i have floods of thoughts to be writen bu ti just don't have enough time to write maybe cause i'm busy lately.

The metro a whole experience by itself everytime i'm in it i wish i had a camera and i can capture moments lately i ride the metro everyday due to my training circumstances life in the metro is a hell of poetic experience from the faces to the moment you arrive to your desired station, from the METRO TV that plays the same song and same ads all the time from the people running and saying " La 7awl wala kowat ella bellah" from the people reading news papers and other riders starring at the papers from the really cute children saying " Mama mosh hanewsal ba2a" sometimes among all the bad atmosphere of the Metro you find happy people but these are really really few number to mention Egyptian people are really tired and really they're poor and desperate don't we need just to think again a huge gap is still there between each metro staton from el Doki to Ghamra for example, we need a change.

for me the best moment for me in the metro is when i see el Kobba palace from far away it feels like home and time to leave the metro.

One press and its GONE

A long time ago i used to think that human relations are so strong that they can last forever i always remember the thought that i can keep my relations with the people i know forever but the more as i go in time the more i realize that this thought is totally not true, the more i move on with life the more we forget people we used to know to the extent that the link between us is broken, it's hard to know that as time goes we meet new people and forget old people maybe that's life the more we see the less we know the more we like to let it all go.

Sometimes i feel that old people are just a memory and i really hate to see them just online on MSN and no link can be created i reached the extent to delete some MSN contacts so as not to see them again because simply they don't even care to say HI, see how technology can make you have a one press and it's all gone maybe i was searching for an ideal world but we simply don't have one life goes on so shall we.

The weekend

A couple of years ago when i used to hear the radio specially Nile fm i used to feel how happy the presenters were when they feel that the weekend is close and i always felt the opposite cause my weekends are same as my week days so i used to miss the shows on Fridays and Saturdays now after having that long training every day and having to go there every day i really feel that for the first time that i'm so happy for the weekend to begin. :)

The secret isn't a secret

The secret book is my latest readings but i just watched the movie instead of reading and they're both the same the secret is "The law of attraction" as it says we attract our thoughts and we can become what we believe we can just ask and we'll receive.

The idea is that it's not really of a secret i already knew that but i nearly forgot it mainly the idea is asking you to be optimistic about everything and be sure that you'll get it, i remember those words very well that says that "Whatever you think of God He'll be as your thoughts" not exact translation but what it means is that if you think God will never harm you then be sure that no harm can reach you ... the same idea of the secret which is to attract your thoughts and become what you believe

The secret isn't a secret but it's just forgotten

On we go

On we go
back on our own
we lose track
but we come back again
on we go
back on our own
losing sight
feeling blind
and no place to go
on we go towards no where

Hollow from inside

Feeling like something is missing
feels like something isn't right
feels like i can't be there
feels like i can't be anywhere
feels like i'm missing
I'm feeling hollow from inside

The Pyramids

Today i had to pass by the pyramids on my way to 6h of October city for me i felt some inward fear don't know why,lately i nearly forgot that Egyptians built the pyramids i kept looking at them and wondered how the hell did they build such an amazing landmark and the thing is we keep on following our past maybe it was good for me to not remember that Egyptians built the pyramids because its time that we look forward not backward.

Fly me to the moon ...!!

Fly me to the moon a great song isn't it but when i sing it i say fly me to the moon then smash my head back on the ground it's amazing how events in this life takes place and it just makes you over the moon for a moment and then all of a sudden with a glimpse of an eye or maybe a word or maybe something you see you just bang hard to the ground after being high to the
moon isn't that life sometimes weird it never keeps you over the moon !!

here's the song lyrics :)

Fly me to the moon
Let me sing among those stars
Let me see what spring is like
On jupiter and mars

In other words, hold my hand
In other words, baby kiss me

Fill my heart with song
Let me sing for ever more
You are all I long for
All I worship and adore

In other words, please be true
In other words, I love you

I'll follow you into the dark

Confusuion of thoughts

You know sometimes you feel like you're idle and got nothing to do that's me right now i want to write and i don't know what i want to write maybe the feeling that there are many things n my head makes me always do that, whenever i feel down i just got these fingers playing on the keyboard and typing some few words here in that very place, the best thing about being a writer is that you get to think about everything that's happening around you to extract from them few words to be written maybe a glimpse a moment can make a topic of like 30 lines anyway go continue doing what u were dong as life goes on ....

HURT

I woke up to tears in my eyes it was a weird dream and all i want to say is said in that video all the lyrics in that song is what i wanted to say ....

http://youtube.com/watch?v=n_7vFt0ZtFo

My little red zmzameya

For those who don't know arabic zmzmeya : A bottle of water used by children

My little red zmzameya i was looking at that picture and many stuff gained my attention but the thing that made me laugh the most is my little red zmzameya Oh my .. many memories with that zamzamya i used to take it everyday to school and drink from it i guess i kept using zamzameya till prep. stage it always was heavy but i loved it .. i remember there used to be teachers who permit drinking water from zmzameya and others who didn't i used to love teachers who tell us whenever u want to drink and have a zmzameya u can drink :D i remember one day i went to buy a new zmzameya it was the first time for me to buy a zmzameya and i chose a pink UNO one and i had to bring it back to the shop cause they told me that pink is girls' color since then i never choose the pink color :D

I stopped using zmzameya and replaced it by a small bottle of water in my bag i felt so weird then cause i always felt something must be hanged around my neck but not anymore we just grow up to change ... but to be honest i don't miss only my zmzameya but i miss zmzameya days as well ..

This picture wil have another post soon ...

Busy 3an busy yefre2 !!

the whole idea is that I am so busy these days definition of the word busy from the dictionary is

Busy ADJECTIVE:

1. Engaged in activity, as work; occupied.
2. Sustaining much activity:

lately i've been busy by definition but imagine being busy and happy and here comes the title of the topic "Busy 3an busy yefre2" a couple of weeks ago i was busy as well but even much more busy than these days but the feeling that you're busy because you're doing something you don't want to make or because you're forced to do it that's the busy that we hate and it'll never make you happy but I'm busy these days with something and stuff that i want to do and that what makes me a happy busy person "we 2allak eh busy 3an busy yefre2 :D"

Choices

Choices ... looking at my life these days i realize that it's getting all centered about one thing which is making choices it's getting tougher these days you know what i never got many choices in my life before there always used to be paved roads to me but these days i found many choices and hard decisions to take it seems that the more we grow the more choices we have and the tougher they become "May God help me to make the right choices "

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No comment :(

checking an old interview application and i found my answer to that Q and....

What do you do on fridays?

one of two visiting my grandfather or ACES

A deep breath

A deep breath i wish to take

it's over or maybe this feeling was fake
breathing some fresh air
forgetting all for my sake
A deep breath for a smell of freedom
from the dark prisons of thoughts
it's time to take a deep breath
cause i feel it's over
i need fresh air for the sake of tomorrow

The PUSH

A couple of days ago my PC wasn't functioning properly it suddenly shuts off so i just opened the case and found out that the CPU fan isn't working and i just thought it was dead but i just gave a try i turned ON the PC and just moved the Fan with my hands and it just went moving safe and sound and since that day whenever i turn ON the pc i just give the fan that starting push.

It's amazing this life how everything looks so similar and everything needs that PUSH the starting PUSH that just keeps us moving every now and then don't you think to start anything we'll always need that push just like the CPU fan ?

A wandering thought

It was just a wandering thought
wandering through my heart and soul
through my stars you flew away
you were just a wandering thought
and you wandered through my mind today

The barber and electrical department

Today i was having my hair cut in the barber shop i always go to, i've been having my hair cut there since i was born maybe :D.
so i went there and the guy has a couple of kids studying engineering so i told him why not let them enter electrical department and he was like !! "laaah kahraba eihh" and he kept telling me that all the people who study electricity and have their hair cuts at his shop are totally shy,calm nerdish people :D he has total belief that a student of electricity has no social life and all his life is about studying i just couldn't reply :D maybe the guy was right ..... when i was leaving he said "kol ma bashofak betes3ab 3alaya el bahdala beta3et kahraba :D " so.. kids don't enter electrical departments not good for you :) .

Lets bring it to light

It's time for everyone i know to be able to read the VoIcE wiThin it's the time that i bring to light all my writings from last month since i declared that i'm back to writing and i didn't stop writing here maybe that was because i got my face book account closed for a while so whenever i felt something bugging me i just came to write here ... that's the place for you to know the main things that are wandering through my mind so keep visiting .....

The camera

These are days we live we feel we had we remember the past the future the present and all that we had days we live and we don't know if we can live some like them again maybe .. why do i say these words its just because i remembered some few moments when i was checking www.acesegypt.com and i checked the gallery and found a couple of photos for me in there, i remembered then the word i said in Brainducers workshop i told them that the camera isn't just for taking photos it's the most effective tool of motivation in the world and how as time will go and ACES ends the only thing that will remain is our captured moments together, maybe that was one of the reasons i applied to be an IT member in ACES last year the joy of capturing moments and the feeling how valuable these things will become after it's all over.

stick to your photos stick to your memories don't be sad cause it's over smile cause it happened :)

shhh. balash dawsha !!!

Studying in my room and the voice from my parents room is coming to my ears its a familiar voice its the voice of Hillary Clinton speech and how annoying is her voice i swept my mind away and wanted to tell her "Balash dawsha" i don't know till when will current presidents or candidates keep talking this nonsense and a useless crowd is sitting clapping their hands on each and every single sentence she may say i'm gonna kill you all you bastards :D and all what they'll do is say 'Heehh" what's the use of these speeches when there's no action and we all remember the speeches of all presidents before sitting on the chair ... and their actual actions were quite different from what they said now i believe one thing that all these speeches are just ... "dawsha" so now i put my headphones on and yeah some music.

Stop and stare

Sometimes in our life we have just to stop and stare cause we're simply moving and going no where great meanings are in this song maybe u'll find yourself in these few words.

Enginering tax

I was taking a look a while ago at my CV and i thought of every item written in it you know that part from the song superman for five for fighting he says "It's not easy to be me" yeah it's never easy for anyone to be something and it's not easy to be superman i'll be talking now about the tax we pay to be us the tax of being an engineer the tax we pay if we want to be something lately i totally hate one thing about my college that if you want to succeed in it you have to pay a very expensive tax this tax is not only your time but also the space of your mind if you're an engineer and specially a person who takes part in an acticty you'll know exactly what i mean, i realized lately that i've been running so fast and in my track i didn't focus on other things in life even my family i don't feel like home it's just a place to study and sleep what's always on my mind is what i'm gonna study today or what task do i have for today ... there are many moments and things we miss if we want to be something, simply if we want to be engineers i feel we're missing many stuff or maybe i'm the only one who feels so ...enjoy that video :D

Lost

I feel like that song now really



Coldplay Lyrics
Lost Lyrics

Broken melody

Broken melody

I got what i wanted
but i lost what i already had
life is like a broken melody
you can get a good song
but you can never get a full track

I'm no super man

lately i found that song by coincidence and really being in my college i want to say to the world

I'm No Superman


Out the door
Just in time
Head down the 405
Gotta meet the new boss by 8 am

The phone rings in the car
The wife is workin hard
She runnin late tonight again

Well I know what I’ve been told
U gotta work to feed the soul
But I can’t do this all on my own
No I know
I’m no superman
I’m no superman

And you've got your love online
U think you're doin fine
But you’re just plugged into the wall

And that deck of tarot cards
Won’t get u very far
There ain't no hand to break your fall

Well I know what I've been told
U gotta know just when to fold,
But I can’t do this all on my own
No I know
I’m no superman
I’m no superman

You’ve crossed the finish line
Won the race but lost your mind
Was it worth it after all?

I need u here with me
Cause love is all we need,
Just take a hold of the hand that breaks the fall

Well I know what I’ve been told
Gotta break free to break the mold
But I can’t do this all on my own

No I can’t do this all on my own
No I know
That I'm no
Superman
I’m no superman
I’m no superman

(Some day well be together)
I’m no superman
(Some day)
(Someday well be together)
(Someday)
I’m no superman

What's the score

What's the score i remember that part of Rob's show on Nile fm when he used to play music of movies in part of his show called what's the score for the past 2 days i've been mainly listening to movie scores and i downloaded many of them they just puts you in a good mood one of the best movie scores i got to download is the full soundtrack Album of Memoirs of a geisha i trully love that japanese taste in the album it makes me feel good and now i want to see the movie its amazing how can a piece of music make you want to see the movie itself :) anyway if you get the chance to download the movie score you have to it's worth it