Degree of freedom

In life we have two degrees of freedom , if i can't pass the first degree then i'll never be able to ask for the second 

Proud of ...

"I hope you live a life you're proud of. If you find that you're not, I hope you have the strength to start all over again" Benjamin Button

Don't ask me why but these words are ringing in my head day and night lately and it's the most annoying words to ring in my head because I really don't know if am living a life that I should be proud of or not it's a deep feeling of losing directions.

And the more I try to understand what could make me proud I get even more lost in the thoughts directions and deep reasons of life and up-till now to be honest there's no clear indication of what could make me proud of myself. 

The butterfly

Oh sweet butterfly why won't you fly 

with no wings you can even try

you smile and rise in the morning shine

yet you can't reach the skies

Oh sweet butterfly why won't you fly

afraid to fall down or afraid to feel alive

life's gift for you is to live and try

and in the end of the day remember 

 you're a sweet butterfly.

الحقيقة وراء Noha elmasri

A beautiful day on Facebook sitting by my screen and this picture keeps popping to my right side menu.

And as they say curiosity can kill the cat sometimes i wanted to see who's this great person in history that deserve me to subscribe to her news feed so i go into the profile and here's the following 

Just few quick comments a person who has 277,000 subscribers and sorry to say 277,000 stupid person , how the hell does this mix combine with a simple logic .. she went to cairo university and then (sob7an Allah) she went to Alexandria university and at the end of the road she works at Google (google yemken beta3 el playstation) and everyone is happy subscribing to the account. And here's how you can make a successful account in Egypt all you can do is put the picture of a beautiful girl and "voila" the whole Egyptian love and subscribe , this is not the only example i can see many from the style of AUC girl who has thousands of subscribers and for the sake of humanity would a real girl allow this to her profile unless she's 1 of 2 things you name them.

And as i said i became more curious thanks to new technology of Google images actually you can search the web by using image shots .. so i searched by the image to know who's really Noha elmasri.

First result from the page of (فتيات وشباب يبحثون عن الزواج) and guess what with more than 20,000 subscribers you can check and see all pictures of Noha elmasri.

And i found another profile i think maybe that's the real Noha elmasri but this time she's called Farah Osama

I made all this topic not just for the sake of telling people not to subscribe to Noha elmasri or Farah Osama or maybe facebook would stop popping these stupid suggestions and whoever the hell that person is , but what i really wanted to point out is the main problem we're suffering here in Egypt within our community ... guys go get a life.

"تعالي معايا يا حلوة " Group

If any of you have seen the movie "رامي الاعتصامي " and even if you didn't, but i happen to live the same situation that the movie starts with a group of useless people sitting on their laptop and creating random groups to grab attention and finally Ramy the genius end up with the group name that unites the nation "تعالوا نغير النشيد"

Today i was sitting in the club just relaxing, when a bunch of kids came to sit beside me (kids of age : 10-13 max) and they had the very same conversation in the movie "we want to make a group on Facebook" and the suggestions were ringing in my ears and the group name they settled upon was "تعالي معايا يا حلوة" and they kept planning how will they do it and the point is am not telling you a fairy tale i kept just trying to stay focused but this is real a kid 10 years old want to use Facebook to make a group named "تعالي معايا يا حلوة"

So i left them were they were and decided to go back home and while riding the taxi , the taxi driver as usual kept ranting about the revolution and the current situation in Egypt and how life sucks and this country is a hopeless case. So all i did is asked him what do you think can fix this country .. he said its hopeless case we've been learning for all our lives that bad is good and good is bad don't tell me to change now. And after i stepped down the taxi  i remembered the group "تعالي معايا يا حلوة" and i thought if people can't change who they're now what about the next generation.

If our generation is a hopeless case what about the coming generation and they seem to be quite promising with making Facebook group like "تعالي معايا يا حلوة" , i may believe the country situation is worst than ever and maybe life ain't good but what i can't stand is our kids the coming generation falling into the same mistakes !

Let's work on giving them a reason to live and a dream to hope for and a goal to work upon so we won't end up having 10 year old kids talking about group "تعالي معايا يا حلوة"

أنا عايز أبقى تنين

I was searching through some LinkedIn profiles by just a random scan , to see the future of those who dare to dream and suddenly i started looking as well to people at my same age what they achieved so far in life .. some of those profiles were really inspiring to the extent i called some of them " تنين " and  تنين in English means dragon and for a day or two i've been thinking about how to become a  تنين .

The point is while thinking and thinking i reached the point where i really can't define the meaning of  تنين in English dictionary " Dragon : a mythical monster generally represented as a huge, wingedreptile with crested head and enormous claws and teeth,and often spouting fire" 


Which of-course has nothing to do with my case , but really who's the تنين is it the person who achieves career success or life success , is it that person who's miserable at work yet gain loads of money or is it the one who just lives a normal life happy married , is it that person who chose to get married early and build a family or is it that person who decided to travel the world in chase of a certificate or a better future.


Too many choices and too many roads and still the definition of تنين not defined maybe am sure that everyone is special in his own way , but the person who excels and uses what he's special at the most maybe this could be called a تنين. And until i can fine my road and make my choices and choose what i do really want and what does a تنين mean to me .. i'll still hope and got nothing but hope and pray "أنا عايز أبقى تنين"

The song

That maybe life is nothing more than a piano song

with its tunes going in your mind and moving along

That maybe the days that pass are nothing but some tunes

some we play and some we don't choose

Facebook visit

For personal and non personal reasons i was deactivating Facebook now for more than 20 days and today i decided to check what happened in my friends' virtual world and in 1 hour i was able to grasp all my friends news.

It feels really weird that all the news on Facebook for 20 days can be summarized in 1 hour instead of wasting 2 hours each day of nothing  trying to follow up with each news feed , so i decided to summarize what happened in my friends news feed.

Still the same some got engaged and other broke up , there are those who keep sharing the same stupid useless political stuff and those who enjoy being stunning and there are those who graduated and those who still share activities news charity non charity stuff , there are those who had their birthdays and a wall filled with posts , there are those who posted their photos abroad and those who posted their photos at work. There are those who wore veil because of Ramdan and those who set a journey to enjoy summer. There are those infinite amount of scenes from Ramdan shows and TV series (specially el kebeer awy) and there are those profile pictures with arabic words (suddenly we discovered the beauty of our language) and there are still people who talk about Hosny Mobarak trial .. and still there are those people that make you feel like you're nothing .. there are still those who were once your friends and no longer even care.

One of the things i did even-though am knowing i'm going to deactivate Facebook once again is un-friend 1 friend from my friend list and to tell you the truth i felt so relieved doing so.. some people just make you feel they no longer deserve to know them or remember you were once their friend.

And at the end of the visit, the world no longer feels the same in 20 days i can admit so many news happened in my friend list life but the thing for me those were just another 20 days in life , i know being away from Facebook made me miss many events , birthdays and life events. but to tell you the truth .. who cares anyway.

Composition

In school days , there used to be this crazy part of our language class where we write compositions it didn't matter whether it's Arabic or English but i remember i used to like writing those silly childish compositions.

While wandering with my thoughts today i remembered a composition i was really praised upon and it was about imagining life in the near future and i really can't remember more than the title but what i remember is that the teacher liked it alot. Don't know why today i had the thought that i really want to read this composition along side many other compositions that were lost either in rotten copy books or burnt out papers.

And i got this crazy idea that i want to share with any English - Arabic teacher , in the age of technology i urge you to ask your students to write compositions on free lancing basis , they should write the topics they want to talk about and not the cliche' compositions about pollution, peace and mother's day. Students should be given the chance to express their selves the way they want and more than that i urge teachers to ask their students not to write those compositions on paper or class copy book but let them post it in their own blogs , let's teach them how to post their thoughts and let the world hear it comment about it and even share it online.

In the age of digital revolution we're living, students writings can no longer be judged only by their teachers but the whole world around them , just give them the hint and let them go.

عادي

أنا مش فاهم حاجة و ماشي بكلم نفسي و بقول عادي 

يمكن أكون تايه أو يمكن أكون ماشي في حالي 

عادي

ماهو كل شئ في حياتنا بأة عادي

يا عم كبر يا عم نفد و كلو فالأخر فاني 

ناس بتتكلم و ناس بتسمع وأهو كلو فل أخر بيهاتي

و ده مش بس حالي ده حال كل اللي في البلد دي

و مالو برده هرجع وأقول عادي 

منا أصلي يعمل نفسي فاهم كل حاجة يعمل نفسي مش فاهم 

و فالحالة ده أو الحالة ده 

 هدعي ربنا إنو  يصلح حالي

Happy People

A work colleague once wrote on her Facebook status

"I miss being around happy people"

Isolation

What if i was born in another time and another place somewhere other than where i am, nothing but me and myself what if the environment change and the places mingled and everything that seemed real to me would seem different.

What if i was born in an isolated place .... would my life feel the same

Random

That maybe the word Random is the correct word to use at this part of my life , i can't believe how much i want to write these words right now , it's not the words themselves but the act of writing them and since lately every-time i try to write something i get mad of it and delete the post ... this time i won't and that's why i called the post Random, because actually this post is purely random.

The fact is that human beings are like strangers lost on their own world , the thing that really nudges my mind these days is the fact that we're such tiny creatures in this universe and i keep asking myself what's there in this vast space what do these creatures do and how do they communicate how do they act - react .. will there come a day we reach them and if so why did God create this huge universe really huge and how tiny we are i know that logic or human logic don't work with this but i really can't stop thinking about this thought of huge and small tiny and large -- universe and multi-verse.


The other fact is that life keeps going and the question that pops to my mind , why are we here and what's our ultimate goal i used to know answers for sure but now i just don't , few days ago i watched the movie sweet november and i felt exactly that am living keeanu reaves life this life which is only oriented about career as the goal of life .. and i really have the thought of quitting everything for just 1 year but am not brave enough to do it.


That maybe the word random is what express purely my life now just a sequence of random thoughts random hopes and random dreams ... but the most important part is feeling randomly lost.

Snapshots from the kingdom (The journey)

One of the things that Paulo Coelho  used to talk about in his books was the need for a journey to find yourself , in all his novels he always sets the main character on a travel journey and that journey is what makes him find or learn something either about himself or about someone else.

During the next few posts i'll write few snapshots from my (Ummrah) journey because at the end of the day its a journey to the most Islamic religious spot on earth and during this journey i passed through few snap shots that i need to keep in mind either for history or for others to learn from ... (To be continued)

Successful Friends

I had a total shift of paradigm when one of my work colleagues was talking about how life successful her friends are they're so successful with high degrees and working at the biggest multinationals worldwide.

So i asked her don't you feel jealous , she told me that it makes her feel stronger so i asked her why she told me

  "Your friends' success show you where your potential can lead you"