One month to change

The best thing about it when a year comes to an end is that you get to see how far you went and how much did you achieve .. the problem with this year really is that i had a really tough challenge for the year 2008 and so far i haven't well achieved my goal for 2008 which was "to find myself and not to be happy but to be satisfied" getting to realize that the year is comming to an end i haven't yet achieved my goal makes me feel kind of bad ...

so i'm setting a challenge to myself here i am in my blog announcing that isA by the end of this month i'll achieve my goal eventhough it's not tangible and not realistic but i wanna achieve it i'll try to share my thoughts about it here everyday through this month if i find methods to achieve it

StEp 1 : The will to start through this month 1 hour each day of deep thoughts

Shall i reconsider ?

My birth date

Bringing analysis to my BD i found it really interesting seeing famous people born on 28/2 that nearly most of them are either writers,singers,composers and actors and it's really weird how nearly most of them are like that it made me think that maybe i should have been a writer or something .. mm i 'm already one :D but the thing that stopped me really i found someone famous born on the same year of mine

1988 - Markéta Irglová, Czech songwriter and actress

and i was like ok let's check who's that girl who was born the same day of mine and nearly my same age and to tell you about her she's an academy award winner song writer and actress

• Academy Award 2008 Achievement in Music Written for a Motion Picture (Original Song) - "Falling Slowly" from Once
• Critics' Choice Award 2008 Best Original Song - "Falling Slowly" from Once
• Los Angeles Film Critics Association Award 2008 Best Original Score - for Once

and that made me just stop and look at myself and say that's weird that she did all that while i'm still here and didn't make that kind of achievement or really solid ground achievement days go by so fast and we don't know .. who knows maybe tomorrow brings something new

enjoy my same day singer song :)

Do you ?

Do you ?
cause i feel it in a weird way too
it's there in my thoughts and mind
i can't figure out if it's wrong or right
you seem to be a long hope
but just far away to hold
Do you ?
i can feel it in your eyes
it's long call for tomorrow's shine
people are there around you
but deep inside i feel you're lost
so why don't we just sing together our favorite songs
Do you ?

or maybe you don't

to an unknown person that i feel i'm also unkown to

The great depression

Have you ever felt that everything around you has a bad memory and everything surrounding you is aiding that feeling .. the feeling of depression the feeling of sadness the feeling of being lost cause these days specially, everything got meaning and it only brings me down don't know how did my state reach that state am in now... am simply in the state of the great depression.

On and on the rain will fall
Like tears from a star
like tears from a star
On and on the rain will say
How fragile we are
How fragile we are

Sting... fragile

You don't see me

From keane's song "you don't see me"

Like beautiful dawns, all made up and bright
Radiant people, in splintering light
All moving at the speed of life
Reflecting in each others' eyes
But you're moving so fast
Through this beautiful scene
You don't see me

You don't see me

Randy pausch R.I.P

For the past few days i was obsessed by that guy and his" last lecture " this guy is so inspiring in a way no one can imagine i wish one day i could be like him in the way he has a life prespective Raundy pausch maybe dead but i guess he left enough inspiration for the whole world to love him and be sad about him ... Raundy pausch R.I.P

One more brick

one more brick over the building
can make it just perfect
or could simply collapse it
lost in thoughts gone with hope
seen the world ups and downs
i still cant seem to understand
if the brick i need
would make it perfect
or simply collapse it

It comes and it goes

These days it just comes and it goes ....

MSN memories

Great song ...

I just love this lyrics it kinds of relate to many of us it's metallica the unforgiven 3
always loved their unforgiven songs but this one is so good :) .. here's the lyrics

How could he know this new dawn's light
Would change his life forever?
Set sail to sea but pulled off course
By the light of golden treasure

Was he the one causing pain
With his careless dreaming?
Been afraid, always afraid
Of the things he's feeling
He could just be gone
He would just sail on
He would just sail on

How can I be lost?
If I've got nowhere to go?
Searched for seas of gold
How come it's got so cold?
How can I be lost?
In remembrance I relive
And how can I blame you
When it's me I can't forgive?

These days drift on inside a fog
It's thick and suffocating
This seeking life outside its hell
Inside intoxicating
He's run aground like his life
Water's much too shallow
Slipping fast down with the ship
Fading in the shadows now

A castaway
Blame all gone away
Blame gone away

How can I be lost
If I've got nowhere to go?
Searched for seas of gold
How come it's got so cold?
How can I be lost?
In remembrance I relive
And how can I blame you
When it's me I can't forgive?

Forgive me, forgive me not
Forgive me, forgive me not
Forgive me, forgive me not
Forgive me, forgive me
Why can't I forgive me?

Set sail to sea but pulled off course
By the light of golden treasure
How could he know this new dawn's light
Would change his life forever

How can I be lost
If I've got nowhere to go?
Searched for seas of gold
How come it's got so cold?
How can I be lost?
In remembrance I relive
So how can I blame you
When it's me I can't forgive?

Back to my shell

I just want to be back to my shell
i miss being there all by my self
i want to be back to me
and no one else i'd rather see
i just want to be back to my shell
tired of lies hi's and goodbyes
tired of trying to be
i Just want to be back to my shell

The big bang machine

I was watching this documentary about the big bang machine and ohh my .. what was that i thought for a second or two i was watching a science fiction movie or something that's not real or can never be this is considerent the most expensive scientific experiment on earth .. it tries to reformulate the big bang (That's when the whole universe started) i just kept watching it and i felt amazed for how we as humans just keep searching for answers and still with all what we think is advanced technology we don't know the basics of the basics of this universe we're nothing but a sand drop in an endless desert, through watching this documentary i remembered the movie contact one of my all time favorite movies it's nearly the same idea but with different prespective the quest for knowing why and the strange thing is that the smaller we search for something like an electron or atom we build such massive stuff.

The question that lies in my head and i keep searching for answers for it even after having great curiousity to see this experiment comming to life is .. is it really worth spending 6 billion dollars on such experiments arent there many people in msasive need for that money, what would we benefit if we get the answer to those scientists questions .. really i don't know but i have to say that's one of the most impressive thing i've ever seen in my life, i wish one day i could work in such environment who knows :) .

here's part 1 of the documentary you can check the rest of the videos at this link

http://www.youtube.com/view_play_list?p=57AFCCB98A0BFBD5

now

I feel am running in hundred different direction and i don't know which way leads back to me.

Can't read you

Long time ago exactly in preparatory stage i used to walk every day for like two hours at home doing nothing but thinking about life maybe i was dreaming or was thinking .. i did nothing in this period of my life except thinking and thinking of why are we here and how my life could be in the future i always thought about my feelings and i became in a very efficient way able to identify everything happening inside me.

Sometimes i regret wasting that part of my life but on the other side i feel if i havent passed through that period i'd not have been what i am today and had these many thoughts and maybe i wouldn't have been a poet or a thinker.

I'm saying all this because it led to me that i can read people without speaking it became a challenge that i can read minds from everywhere even random people in the street i just look at them and feel how they feel try to have empathy with them... but there's only one person i totally can't read i can't even figure out what do they think or how do they feel for the first time i feel failure in my talent which is reading minds .. i want to tell that person simply i can't read you.


enjoy the song :)