The big bang machine

I was watching this documentary about the big bang machine and ohh my .. what was that i thought for a second or two i was watching a science fiction movie or something that's not real or can never be this is considerent the most expensive scientific experiment on earth .. it tries to reformulate the big bang (That's when the whole universe started) i just kept watching it and i felt amazed for how we as humans just keep searching for answers and still with all what we think is advanced technology we don't know the basics of the basics of this universe we're nothing but a sand drop in an endless desert, through watching this documentary i remembered the movie contact one of my all time favorite movies it's nearly the same idea but with different prespective the quest for knowing why and the strange thing is that the smaller we search for something like an electron or atom we build such massive stuff.

The question that lies in my head and i keep searching for answers for it even after having great curiousity to see this experiment comming to life is .. is it really worth spending 6 billion dollars on such experiments arent there many people in msasive need for that money, what would we benefit if we get the answer to those scientists questions .. really i don't know but i have to say that's one of the most impressive thing i've ever seen in my life, i wish one day i could work in such environment who knows :) .

here's part 1 of the documentary you can check the rest of the videos at this link

http://www.youtube.com/view_play_list?p=57AFCCB98A0BFBD5

now

I feel am running in hundred different direction and i don't know which way leads back to me.

Can't read you

Long time ago exactly in preparatory stage i used to walk every day for like two hours at home doing nothing but thinking about life maybe i was dreaming or was thinking .. i did nothing in this period of my life except thinking and thinking of why are we here and how my life could be in the future i always thought about my feelings and i became in a very efficient way able to identify everything happening inside me.

Sometimes i regret wasting that part of my life but on the other side i feel if i havent passed through that period i'd not have been what i am today and had these many thoughts and maybe i wouldn't have been a poet or a thinker.

I'm saying all this because it led to me that i can read people without speaking it became a challenge that i can read minds from everywhere even random people in the street i just look at them and feel how they feel try to have empathy with them... but there's only one person i totally can't read i can't even figure out what do they think or how do they feel for the first time i feel failure in my talent which is reading minds .. i want to tell that person simply i can't read you.


enjoy the song :)

mmm..

imagine urself having a dream and you can't figure out what it means and you can't ask how or why .

Life is a network

A few days ago i discovered that i can use network terminologies in my status messages on facebook and now i realize that every network term can be a double meaning to something in my head it's amazing that everything in this life is interconncected exactly like a network we have high cost paths and low cost .. we have ups and downs and networks failures, sometimes it's easy to ping send and recieve and other times you just have a destination host un-reachable or request time out, the beauty of this life is that wherever you go the more you know .. and the more you know the more you realize how small you're ..

Scream

Low tesma7eely

Hany adel deserves round of an applause for that song just love it ... he's always been one of my all time favorite singers its the simplicity of the voice and the lyrics enjoy

Under the water

I wrote your name under the water
but the waves just swept it away
tried to dig it in the sand
but time didn't give it a chance to stay
i wrote your name under the water
and i wasn't sad cause it was blown away
cause in my mind it'll always remain

Leave

Long ago when my friends used to tell me we're leaving that country i used to say no way i leave this country or think about going anywhere else, i always believed that we all think the mistake is with others but we always forget that we're others to every one living here.

I don't know but now i really feel one day i'll have to go i don't know i feel like i'm moving in a direction where the majority aren't following i have to admit many people i know are moving in my same track but the most of Egyptians are moving in a way while i'm moving in another one this country needs the hell of a change hope that day comes so i decide to stay not to leave.

Water tap

A couple of days ago i had the water cut out from our home for like 6 hours, it's amazing how few things in life that we rarely notice; like water presence in our home, when they're cut out your whole life turns into a total mess, we rarely recognize the various blessings in our life don't we.

so if you go now and open the tap and find water flowing through your hands know that you're in a bless :) .

Dear blog ,

Dear blog ,

I hope this message i'm writing reach you in the best conditions ever, how are you doing it seems that i haven't been in touch with you for very long time but forgive me it's life it can keep us busy and away from the dearest people to us not only you my blog but many people in my life, i'm just to busy to even say Hi.

Through the past period my dear friend i've been through many ups and downs and life just keeps rolling like a train it goes and never stop but the problem my friend that for once i had the chance for my train to stop, but it seems i miss the air coming from the window of it i miss to see the train moving once again, even though; i was so tired and bored from the journey but isn't it true that sometimes we hate whatever state we're in.

Dear blog i'm writing you that message after not finding anyone to write for that message seems that you're always loyal to me even though i always let you down
but forgive me cause i'm living in the land of confusion i'm just taking some time down to realize what i am and where i should be tough questons but will decide many future stuff in my life so i have to be careful.

Dear blog just wish me luck.

Hope to hear from you soon,

Best Regards
Ahmed Negm

The video that changed me

This video had a great effect on my soul hope it changes u like it did to me

The Moment Of Truth

Watching the show the moment of truth and wondered will i be afraid to participate on that show i wondered which questions would i fear the most to be asked about i wondered what things in life i feel ashamed of it's the hard to think about that i wish i had a moment of truth just to let all what's inside of me but will that benefit me or harm me.

The question is how many of us had really a one moment of truth

قلم رصاص

سالنى قلمى الرصاص ماذا تريد ان تكتب قلت له لا أعلم

The Metro

It's been a long time since i wrote here while on the contrary i have floods of thoughts to be writen bu ti just don't have enough time to write maybe cause i'm busy lately.

The metro a whole experience by itself everytime i'm in it i wish i had a camera and i can capture moments lately i ride the metro everyday due to my training circumstances life in the metro is a hell of poetic experience from the faces to the moment you arrive to your desired station, from the METRO TV that plays the same song and same ads all the time from the people running and saying " La 7awl wala kowat ella bellah" from the people reading news papers and other riders starring at the papers from the really cute children saying " Mama mosh hanewsal ba2a" sometimes among all the bad atmosphere of the Metro you find happy people but these are really really few number to mention Egyptian people are really tired and really they're poor and desperate don't we need just to think again a huge gap is still there between each metro staton from el Doki to Ghamra for example, we need a change.

for me the best moment for me in the metro is when i see el Kobba palace from far away it feels like home and time to leave the metro.