HappYness(2)

This is maybe the second time to write about happiness the topic that never ends and always attracted people to write about, this time am talking about my happiness; recently sitting with myself i discovered a huge hole in my soul ... and after searching inside myself i discovered the problem lies in this simple word "HappYness" i just can't identify it , can't feel it and can't know its meaning. I tried to search for what makes me happy and i couldn't find a logical answer and this is causing me alot of inner dis-satisfaction cause whenever am tired and down i search for that something that just lightens my heart and soul and i can't identify it, i can't touch it and i can't feel it. it's always a pursuit but sometimes it's a pursuit of fake HappYness .

Ramdan this year

It's a weird feeling i have this year a feeling i never felt in the holy month of Ramdan, it's the feeling that something is missing or that something isn't going the right way, maybe the internal state i'm feeling these days have reflected to the way i see the month.

But i remember same time last year when i used to go out of home i used to smell ramdan and see it in the eyes of the kids and their parents ... but i can't feel it or touch this spiritual feeling this year or at least today which is the first day, it's either am the one who's feeling so or maybe this a new symptom of culture change in our country.

Anyway (: كل عام وأنتم بخير :)

Now i got no one left to pray for me .. maybe i should start thinking about praying for myself.

RIP my mother's aunt you left the world in silence i'll never forget you.

Slipping away

There was that thought in my head long ago that people i knew once, can never slip away those people with whom we shared unforgettable moments can never slip away, but as time moves on i get to realize that whether we want or not some people will just slip away ... These days people are really slipping away in a really fast rate, they're slipping away from my life and worse than that slipping away from my appreciation and care.

And as Moby said in his song ... Hold on to people they're slipping away.

Computer games

Today i was paying my young cousin a visit and he was showing me the new computer games on his PC and for a moment or two i remained silent, Actually i started to remember when i was his age i always did like him downloaded 2 or 3 games and kept playing them all summer long, I was never bored of these games.

I didn't believe that the day will come when i look at computer games and say what are these boring stuff i never thought that day would come, when i used to ask my parents why don't old people play computer games their answer was always "We have no patience to play such stuff".

Back then at the time i used to play i used to have really nothing to do but to play these games that's why i was never bored of them, but today at this moment of my life i think i really have no patience to waste 6 hours raising a child in the SIMS, back then i was able to do so but now i don't, i have lots to do more than just to waste it on a computer game.

And now i wonder has life become tougher or harder for me or is it still that simple and easy i don't know but what am sure of is that i miss that little kid worrying about nothing.