GTA

So basically these days i really enjoy playing that really old game (GTA 1) and what i do is simply get the nerves out of the cops and keep running away from them exactly as shown in the picture attached.

These days in my life i feel i'm really running and the problem is that the one's running trying to catch me isn't the cops it's something worse, there are actually many things trying to catch me and hunt me down ... those are my fears my old memories and my exams ..... and worse than them all myself.

فى صالون العقاد

I'm not amazed by the amount of knowledge in that book ... nor by "Abbas el akkad" himself i'm just amazed by the way people in Egypt used to be cultured and well educated... and i really start to like el 3akad way of thinking .... Egypt was so rich with such great thinkers and it makes me wonder what happened to us these days.

Steve Jobs' 2005 Stanford Commencement Address

Quotes from Steve jobs speech that i think will change the way i look at my life these days:

Quote1: Of course it was impossible to connect the dots looking forward when I was in college, but it was very, very clear looking backwards 10 years later. Again, you can't connect the dots looking forward. You can only connect them looking backwards, so you have to trust that the dots will somehow connect in your future. You have to trust in something--your gut, destiny, life, karma, whatever--because believing that the dots will connect down the road will give you the confidence to follow your heart, even when it leads you off the well-worn path, and that will make all the difference.

Quote2: I didn't see it then, but it turned out that getting fired from Apple was the best thing that could have ever happened to me. The heaviness of being successful was replaced by the lightness of being a beginner again, less sure about everything. It freed me to enter one of the most creative periods in my life.

Quote3: It was awful-tasting medicine but I guess the patient needed it. Sometimes life's going to hit you in the head with a brick. Don't lose faith.

Quote4: For the past 33 years, I have looked in the mirror every morning and asked myself, "If today were the last day of my life, would I want to do what I am about to do today?" And whenever the answer has been "no" for too many days in a row, I know I need to change something

Quote5: Having lived through it, I can now say this to you with a bit more certainty than when death was a useful but purely intellectual concept. No one wants to die, even people who want to go to Heaven don't want to die to get there, and yet, death is the destination we all share. No one has ever escaped it. And that is as it should be, because death is very likely the single best invention of life. It's life's change agent; it clears out the old to make way for the new. right now, the new is you. But someday, not too long from now, you will gradually become the old and be cleared away. Sorry to be so dramatic, but it's quite true. Your time is limited, so don't waste it living someone else's life. Don't be trapped by dogma, which is living with the results of other people's thinking. Don't let the noise of others' opinions drown out your own inner voice, heart and intuition. They somehow already know what you truly want to become. Everything else is secondary.

"Stay hungry , Stay foolish"

Those moments ...

You know these moments that you had .. the feeling that's caught between joy and fear and indifference .. these moments that just makes you worried and sad and dissastisfied from yourself... these moments that becomes a memory for tomorrow to remember.

cause i feel all these moments right now.

I'm so dissatisfied from my studying performance for this exam and as one friend told me ... you'll be rewarded by your performance all year long and not through these few days ( i hope so ), and am gonna try to focus more on the next exams isA.

How well do you know ..me ?

I'm currently feeling a mix of emotions as you know exams and it's bad timings awaken many memories and many hopes and fears ... so basically all i wanted to do is to talk so here i am in my blog writting few useless talk.

There's that stupid thing lately on facebook and it's an application basically called how well do you know (X) where X belongs to one of your friends and it's expanding in a really fast way and my news feed is filled with it... and i was really thinking about this quiz and i wondered what will my performance be in the quiz how well do you know (X) ... where X equals me .... and the answer is i don't know.

I Need To Wake Up

Have I been sleeping?

I've been so still
Afraid of crumbling
Have I been careless?
Dismissing all the distant rumblings
Take me where I am supposed to be
To comprehend the things that I can't see

Cause I need to move
I need to wake up
I need to change
I need to shake up
I need to speak out
Something's got to break up
I've been asleep
And I need to wake up
Now

** Academy award winning song from the movie (An Inconvenient Truth)

His favorite song

And he keeps playing his favorite song

and thinks it'll revive him all night long
keeps repeating its beautiful words
and hear its rhythem inside his soul
watch the future glimpsing with all its goals
And he keeps playing his favorite song
Till he see the first shred of the dawn
and it's just another night for him, all alone

Fragile

If blood will flow when fresh and steel are one

Drying in the colour of the evening sun
Tomorrows rain will wash the stains away
But something in our minds will always stay
Perhaps this final act was meant
To clinch a lifetimes argument
That nothing comes from violence and nothing ever could
For all those born beneath an angry star
Lest we forget how fragile we are

I can't believe

I can't believe i'm starting to forget you

leaving my heart and soul with unforgotten memory.
Your picture is fading from my mind's screen,
everything now appears so clear.
I can't believe i'm starting once again,
Am Flying away to another far away space
Seeing the world without the shades of your face
I can't believe i'm starting to forget you.
you've been there for so long,
and at the end of the journey
life goes on ...

You can be

You can be as far as the highest stars

and as close as my wildest dream
You can be as high as an old tree
and as close as its roots to the sea
You can be whoever you want to be
but try to be as close as you can to me

Uptown girl

Who can forget such an old song ohhh ... memories

Chance

Tired of waiting for my chance ... to rise and shine

The curious case of benjamin button (4)

This part was said by the old man who keeps telling benjamin Did I ever tell you, I was struck by lightning 7 times?

Did I ever tell you,
I was struck by lightning 7 times?

Once I was walking
the dog down the road.

( A silent moment ) ....
............
I'm blind in the one eye,
can't hardly hear.

I get twitches and shakes
out of nowhere,

I always lose my line of thought.

But you know what?

God keeps reminding me I'm lucky to be alive.

These were the final words said by the old man .. and he didn't appear again in the movie ..

That place

Nile fm forums

You know what no matter how dead that place seems now, i still believe ... that was one of the best things i ever did and one of the best places i've ever been and one of the best moments of my life where spent there, and no matter how bad things went at the end ... i'm still satisfied with our output.

Am ain't

Am ain't that strong

Am ain't that weak either
It ain't my only dream
It ain't yours either
You ain't that far
You ain't that close either
Am ain't that strong
Am ain't that weak either

The sugar

I remember when i had my interview in ACES 07 with HR head she asked me a question ... why would you like to join ACES ? and my answer was simple ..

I told her i believe college for me without ACES is like tea without sugar....

Back then i considered ACES one of the most important sugar in my life that adds taste to the tea ... the sour and tasteless tea.

After spending this year out of ACES, i made a big mistake i'm still paying its dept. what i did was simply trying to drink the tea without adding any sugar to it, till i realized that this year is nearlly over but i can't keep drinking .

It's not about ACES is the sugar what am talking about is that In your life you must always keep searching for sugar that makes your tea not only of good taste but of life worth value.

In the end of august

The curious case of benjamin button (3)

Daisy: What are you thinking of ?

Benjamin: I was thinking of how nothing lasts ....
Benjamin: And what a shame that is ..
Daisy: Somethings last .....

"Risk it for a biscuit"

Back to the good old days of Nile fm radio station and to be more clear to the big drive home show ohh.. memories can flood for years with that station and its shows, i remembered there used to be a really big competetion on the "Big drive home" it was called risk it for a biscuit -which is cadbury biscuit chocolate - and i can't really remember what it was all about but this name really got through my mind right now those 5 simple words "Risk it for a biscuit"

Cause these days i really feel i won't get any biscuits in my life unless i risk it .. and am left with the thought that i really need to "Risk it for a biscuit".

The curious case of benjamin button (2)

There was that part of the movie, when "daisy" got hit by the car the way they showed it; was really clever they showed us how many tiny things could have happened that daisy wouldn't have been hit by the car.

And benjamin ended the story by saying

"But life is being what it is, a series of intersecting lives and incidents out of anyone's control.. the taxi wouldn't have hit daisy"

It's really weird feeling i have now, is that taking a look at my life and how much i intersected with lives and incidents some were in my hands and many others were out of my control .. those tiny lives and incidents i passed through is what made me who i am today.

Many things in my life could have dramatically changed if a really tiny thing happened, all my life path would have changed but in the end ... somethings happen for a reason we may or may not know and there's always things that happen out of our control.

I believe somethings will never happen unless they're meant to be .. so i decided to let go and whatever will be .. will be isA.

The empty space

A couple of hours ago i was implementing memory allocation program .. and what that does is that it's a simulation to show how the memory acts when recieving a new process .. and where to allocate it in its address space.

The weird thing really is that the memory searches for an "Empty space" to fit the new process in, that empty space can be an old process removed with a certain size that just left an empty space and needs to be filled with a new process.

I know this will sound odd for other than computer engineers but it's so weird that when i stopped at my life; it acts exactly like a memory, with an address space of a certain size and that place gets filled with processes, but the truth about processes is that it's temporary and it'll come one day and leave your address space .. and leaves an empty space.

As a life example you can love someone so much and when they leave your life, the place in your heart is left empty and you keep waiting for a new process ("New person") to fill that empty space but the question is, will it take the size of an empty space all .. or leave another empty space cause its size is less than the previous process size.

From my memory assignment i get to realize that our lives is nothing more than trying to fill some empty spaces.