What IF ? !!

What if i haven't entered faculty of engineering ain-shams university and entered the GUC with the offered scholarship ? a question that poped through my mind a few hours ago .. and oh my that's the hell of a question and more a hell of an answer, the answer is simply i don't know ..

But trying to find an answer to this question, i realized that my real turning point in this life was faculty of engineering ASU and i can't imagine myself in some other place i just remembered all the faces i knew in that place and all the situations and all the changes i passed through in that place and all of a sudden i forgot the question "What if" and asked my self "What if not ?"

el 7mdolilah everything happens for a reason we may know or not know

ICY TOWER

It seems to me that life is nothing but an icy tower we keep on climbing seeking the high score and the great combo rounds, we keep on climbing and we don't know when will we fall and the thing is .. the clock keeps ticking.

ABC

ABC..... teach me how to write and read
sometimes we're to blind to see
the truth that hide behind our dreams
tell me the language you need
so i can tell you what's real

ABC.... teach me how to write and read
when the letters are lost beyond our soul
we got nothing to say and no where to go
will you guide me back home

ABC... teach me how to write and read
cause i forgot how to ...
and i need your words to set me free

Nothing

Don't know why i wanted just to let out few stuff, i am here in my favorite place for writing and i just want to write because i have nothing else to do to feed my soul.
The main problem is that i have nothing planned to be written or am i ready to crack up my mind cause there's only 2 or 3 topics inside my head and sadly enough i can't share them with anyone and more sadly i can't handle them and the worst of all ... is that i feel lost.

CISCO .. life

I don't know but i'm feeling exactly like that guy wearing red, when i'm studying cisco these days i feel that everyone around me is out of my world and that they're all running and all the focus is only on me and my studies, it's such a great picture to tell the people am learning at cisco :S

The magic box !!

When memories meet your eyes with something like that "my magic old box" .. when i saw it i couldn't prevent my self from saying AHHhhh... you know i remembered that the day i got that magic box was one of the happiest days of my life back when i was a kid .. i guess i spent all night sleeples on it. For me it was a dream coming true having a nintendo at home for me containing marvellous games like " Captain majed" and " Turtles" that was like heaven for me.

Now i look at it that little white-blue box dead and full of dust that same box was once like heaven to me, it's really a weird world and it keeps getting weirder as we grow older don't you think so ?

Valentine reverse phsycology

The reverse phsycology of valentine that i call is that i believe egyptian people or to be precise singles suffer from.

Is that instead of being sad that they don't have a valentine date or girl friend or whatever, all they do is keep cursing that day and it seems that the world has ended i don't know some people even go far beyond that and whenever they see someone wearing red or getting a rose or something they just keep saying "3amo el 7abeeb" what i believe in these people is that if they had a girl friend they'd have done the same .... we suffer from that here and to me whoever does that and keep cursing the date 14th february is just suffering that he/she is single that's all and instead of showing it he runs away from his within .. so they just keep cursing the day :D

For me i believe that day is special for those people who think it's special, those people who have found their special ones .. since i haven't got one and many of my friends as well so i want to wish you all enjoy that day in the next years isA :)

And i was just thinking of a song to dedicate in valentine day and i couldn't find a better song for me than Oasis- Wonderwall

Inspire by example

A couple of weeks ago we were in a visit to the book fair with few of my friends and we passed by the human development section in one of the book stores, so my friend just kept looking at them and said .... "I want to burn all this section .. i want to let people not waste money on this useless stuff" the thing is i didn't want to argue with him but at the same time i just stopped by myself and asked it did really these stuff help me or not ?

All am gonna try to do in these few lines is to think loudly about this issue; did reading the 7 habits change my life or who moved my cheese ... well i guess yes, but not forever they were just like a momentary action it took me weeks to just keep repeating their pinky world and quotes but it didn't last forever, the thing is about these stuff is that it brings you great motivation and slowly steal it away from you.

I remember now the major changes in my life weren't gained from these books but more with inspiration by real life stories that i saw around me which helped me to become what i am now.

These days am really thinking of a new method of human development far beyond the theoretical part all the writers follow or think about they just keep giving advices .. it's nice but won't be effective i want to develop something called inspire by example it's a method for teaching human development but using success stories i think doing this is much more effective than developing science that can be boring and i want to make it in an indirect way, i mean i won't be telling the student you're learning human development, i'll be telling him i'm just narrating a nice story and eventually he'll be inspired by the story in a way or another.

Anyway the most important thing to end the battle about self help books .. is that we need to call them help yourself books because no body can change if he/she don't have the will to do so whether with a book or without one and whatever method they're gonna use .. it's just the will of change that moves us forward.

The light

All i can see is a ray of light
it shines infront of my eyes day and night
it blooms the flowers infront of my sight
it keeps chasing me whether am wrong or right
All i can see is a ray of light
touching my soul with endless goals
keep me running asking for more
makes me sail searching for shore
but at the end of the day
All i can see is a ray of light ... it's tomorrow's light

Kol yum bas7a

I wish i could spend a whole week with this feeling

" Kol yum el sob7 bas7a we lama yeegy el leil banam gowa meny fekra wad7a eny 3ayesh wel salam"

Least expected

I always like to mention that quote or that thought of mind and if you check my old blogs or my very old blog posts u'd find a good number of posts about that thought.

it says that "happy moments come when least expected" and whenever i take a glance at many happy moments in my life i get to realize that these moments don't happen by a certain interval or by a certain process, they just simply happen when least expected.
So never keep waiting for your happy moments they'll eventually come maybe today maybe tomorrow but always remember they'll come when least expected

Places and people

Today i passed by many places that had great memories in my mind, it's so weird in this life that the places remain, but people keep taking their parts and leave it ... leave it to other people to take their place in the empty spaces .. everything seems the same except that the people aren't the people ... people can come and go but in the end the places remain with their memories to remind us ... that life goes on.

Broadcast storm

I'm suffering these days from a massive broadcast storm of thoughts what a "broadcast storm" is it's a networks definition when all devices want to broadcast it's data to all devices and the network suddenly goes down it's been few days since i have this kind of overflow, to be honest it's begining to settle down in a way or another.

what are the devices in the storm they're many to mention to be honest but in the end we have to collect data and identify it's source and destination.

Thought 1 :one of the thoughts i have now is that about 3 days ago i was having that beautiful dream it happens, but the weirdest thing is that when i woke up my mother told me why were you screaming yesterday while you were sleeping ... and i was like what ? i was having a good dream she said that i screamed alot ... i don't know why was i screaming but the thing is always a good dream is bad described or said or mayeb when i woke up to see the reality, i was shocked don't always the truth hurts ?.

Thought 2 : Is nearly related to thought 1, i am thinking alot these days about the planning phase and believe me before i study i can take more time planning than studying and the weird thing is that i like to plan for everything but what gives this life a beauty is that things never go according to plan .. and eventhough i know that things will never go according to plan i still enjoy the planning phase more than anything.

you know the movie the dark knight when the joker says " Do i look like a guy who has a plan ... i just do things i show schemers and planers how pathetic they're with their plans " i wish i can be like him but planning has its beauty the thing i need to learn is how not to panic when things dont go according to plan

Thought 3: Today i was at Wust el balad concert and my head is overflooded by their lyrics in my head wow .


Thought 4: The thing i really realized these days is that my driving force is a really weird force i guess no one uses this force but for me it's the most effective .. did you ever notice that my driving force is the fear of failure .. maybe that's the thing i hate the most in life "Failure" it's like a ghost haunting me everynow and then and whenever i remember it i just run to do the hard work am doing .. i remember in engineering first year when the year started i was demotivated and so afraid not to pass and whenever i felt that am not studying well i went to that "lo7a" scoreboard and saw how many person failed in last year and i used to tell myself am not gonna be like those never ...

Thought 5: For the past 20 years of my life - i'm 20 years old - i never had a clear vision of my future and maybe for the first time of my life i begin to stick to a certain carrer path and everyday before i sleep i visualize it and dream of it ... i really wish they come true don't know why but all i want now from this life is to achieve my 3 goals i want to focus on them more than anything now and burry away many other stuff takin a big space of my mind isA

join cisco - inspire people - change the world for better

join cisco is a point and i don't mean cisco the company i mean the carrer i have in mind is related to cisco that's all .

Thought 6: There was a long ago a radio show called know thy self they were discussing something in one of the shows ; now i know it's meaning they were discussing something called the after success i didn't understand it by then ... but mainly what it was about is that we always plan for the success but what will we do when we succeed in what we want is it over that way ... or maybe we need to replan everything.
Don't you agree with me that am suffering from a large broadcast storm you know the best thing i enjoy while studying networks is that the whole world seems to be a big network full of netowrk terminologies the beauty of it is to relate life to network that's why i want to be a network engineer is that i love what am studying

life

If life is a dream then am a dreamer
If life is a song then am a singer
If life is an ocean then am a sailer
If life is a book am a writer
If life is a story then am a reader
but life isn't all of that
life is more ...
....much more.

HappY

I don't know why i remembered this situation now so clear cause my head is kind of messed up right now , i remembered a lesson in english at school about 4 or 5 or even 6 years ago the english teacher was having a conversation with us, anyway he was talking about happy people.

So one student said that he has fun with travelling and hanging out, and then pointed out to another student who's kind of nerd and said that this student may have never had fun in his all life, then the english teacher said that you don't know what makes him happy maybe reading a book can satisfy his need of happiness the thing is that "everyone has his way of having fun".

Why did i remember that now because all around me are people doing things that makes them feel happy but for me they don't ... but in the end everyone should ask himself what really makes him happy removing any external factors don't you think so ...